This site has been up for just over a year now, [as of 2007, when I originally wrote this section….] but I held off on having an About section because I kind of figured the write ups and my book explained who I am. How much more do I have to say, you know? I also don’t care much for grandiose spotlight introductions. It’s better to leave clues scattered around, let people piece it together for themselves. ;) And then there’s the fact that I don’t have some grinning photo of myself slapped up somewhere on my site. Because that’s goofy.
So instead, I’d rather focus on the website itself….
How this website came to be
In 2002-03 I had contributed a couple of guest pieces to the Montalk.net site, which officially kicked off my foray into “internet article writing about matrix reality/woo-woo topics.” These pieces, including “What are you going to DO with your life?!” “Harry Potter – Introduction to 4th Density?” and “What They’re Not Telling You About Death” wound up being kind of popular, and I received emails from people about them and found, to my surprise, that they were being passed around the ‘net and posted on blogs and sites. Especially the Harry Potter piece, which analyzed all the mind control symbolisms and trance-induction writing techniques littered thorughout the series (more prominant in the first two books….) as well as noticing how the world of Harry Potter correlates to “4th density STS.” People love pop culture and movies, that’s what I soon discovered. Out of anything I’ve ever written, “Harry Potter,” and the later “Mind Control Themes and Programming Triggers in Movies” section that was written in 2006, and which analyzed all the “Illuminati” mind control symbolisms and trance induction techniques found in movies and such (as amply outlined by Fritz Springmeier and Cisco Wheeler), have gotten the most attention, hands down. So much so that after three years I removed the HP piece because I just got tired of all the attention it got. I later removed the mind control symbolisms and techniques section from my website as well, for the same reason. But not before that subject caught on like wildlife with other people, who picked that ball up and just ran with it. !! Some of them turning into very famous, well known websites or blogs.
So then flash forward to 2004, Tom and I were visiting an acquaintance named Cameron who asked me when I was going to get my own website together. He genuinely felt I should do this and that it would be interesting.
My response? I just looked at him, completely horrified.
NO, was my immediate response.
I didn’t question this aversion, just…reacted. NO WAY, NO. ABSOLUTELY NOT. Very defensive. The next time he brought it up, months later as the three of us stood around chatting in the parking lot outside our apartment here in Virginia, my eyes got huge with that same horrified reaction as before. And I literally, started backing away from him. !!!! Yes, backing away from him. It was weird. I adamantly proclaimed that I’d NEVER do that!
It was after that when I had to start questioning why such the adverse reaction to the idea of putting my writings together in a formal website of their own. On the surface level, the primary reason was….I don’t want to be one of those “crazy girls.” You know what I’m talking about. ! Those kinds of girls. I’d seen them on the ‘net, with their websites about all the crazy woo-woo stuff that happens to them, the abductions, the MILABS. Bad web design usually, that whole “crazy vibe” going on. The helpless victims fretting about their craziness. I don’t want to be them.
But I think it was more. Because I am one of those “MILABS,” one of those “crazy girls” ;) it means there’s a lot of interference and personality tinkering going on. So that whole wide-eyed, backing-away-from-Cameron, feeling of panic at the mere mention of me organizing my stuff together seems to indicate some strong “NO!!!!” programming being instilled in me. And that got me thinking. hmmmmm….I have evidence of other negative personality-shaping programming being given to me (covered in depth in my book), so unfortunately, I know this happens. Which means the negative reaction needed to be questioned.
So, Cameron planted the idea, and regardless of programming we still have free will to make up our own minds. And so I began contemplating the idea that material like this can be presented in a sane and rational way. Just because other people choose to present stuff in a crazy way and be a hapless victim doesn’t mean that’s how it always has to be. And what I’d noticed in my time spent on internet forums and perusing the ‘net was that there was definitely a need for more discussion on these topics. Number synchs in particular was a biggie that was popping up all over the place. So many people seeing specific repeating numbers that seemed to literally follow them around in life. Ear tones. Deja vus. Strange and unusual synchronicities, and fluid reality. I was reading people’s “help! What’s happening and what does it all mean!” posts and giving input about it all on a few forums….so now maybe it was time to compile a website where I discuss all of these topics in one place.
And so 2005 began. I started compiling together what would later become the main foundation for this website – write ups on ear tones, deja vus, number sightings, biorhythm activity in relation to abduction happenings, and so on. Observations taken directly from my personal log books, and theories formulated from firsthand experience. All year I worked on it off and on in a master Word document, but never could seem to get it together and actually fully finish any of the write ups. Not only that, but I didn’t even know what name I would call the website. The name is everything, but it was completely eluding me. So 2005 was a year of being in “wait mode” it seemed. For me anyway. Maybe 2005 was fireworks and excitement for you though, I don’t know. :D
During 2005 I also began taking notes for what would later become my book, “Chasing Phantoms.” I’d held off writing anything formal about abductions because I felt (and still do) that I don’t know enough about it all to be writing anything. Who am I to even try to come up with theories?? I don’t even have definitive answers about my own situation…and I’m supposed to try to help others?? Yeah, okay. BUT, the handwritten notes existed on lined notebook paper scattered about on the floor of the livingroom. Someday….
Then in October of 2005 I found my site name. It inadvertently came from a guy named Jeff that Tom and I have gotten to know from Tom’s message board forum, becoming off-forum buddies with him. Under Jeff’s handle name on the forum it said,
From: In Two Worlds.
in two worlds.
That was it!!!!!! Nothing so perfectly captured the feel of what my material was trying to convey than that. It was absolutely perfect in every way. Tom helped research which versions of it were still available for purchase and then we officially bought my future domain name, in2worlds.net on October 10, 2005. 10/10. I talk about “1010” in my Dreamtime and Waking Life piece and my instances of getting the silver dimes and 1010’s. It was no coincidence that I got 1010’d back when I first began considering doing a website, then wound up officially purchasing the domain name, (cementing it all) on 10/10 itself.
Then December 2005 hit. A full year since I’d started trying to originally write the material for a future website. Tom and I happened to be out one Friday evening at the local coffeehouse downtown called Milano. We left at 6:30, wondering what to do next. Go home? Hang out downtown? Then Tom remembered……there was going to be a – free – “crystal bowl tuning” thing at Quest Books across the street at 7:00. Tonight.
Oh yeah, I remembered. He’d mentioned it before and it had sounded interesting. It’s where a person takes these quartz crystal bowls of different sizes that “play” different tones. The bowl person lightly taps the various bowls with a padded stick of sorts, then moves the stick around the edge of the bowl, creating the reverberating tones. Some of the bowls are also titanium or gold plated, and tuning forks are used as well. It’s the whole “healing with sound vibration” thing. I’ve heard the sound of crystal bowls before but had never experienced a formal session with it all. Since we just so happened to be across the street and didn’t have any scheduled plans and it sounded so interesting AND was free on top of it, off we went.
With our coffees in hand we took our seats inside Quest amongst the 15 or so other people. The man who would be doing the bowl tuning was named M___ (decided to blank out his name as I recently found out that he prefers to remain lowkey….) who wore a white robe lined in gold thread that made him look Atlantean-esque. I had no preconceived ideas about it all since I don’t typically partake in group gathering “new age” types of activities with strangers, and was just going along for the ride. M___ explained everything to us, the lights were dimmed, and soon the show began.
WELL………..roughly an hour later I was in a trance and every cell of my body was vibrating. I felt better than I ever have in my entire life. Ever. Period. !! Yes, it was like that. The tones reverberate through the air, surrounding you and passing through you, affecting you down to the cellular level from the inside out. I had no idea that such a thing was possible to do to the body, that we could even feel this way. It took me almost a half an hour to fully emerge from the trance state I was in, however the positive affects that the tones created with my body lasted for days afterward. It’s like being in the most relaxed, calm and balanced state you could ever hope to be in, and like you can feel your cells buzzing.
If everybody got “bowled” once a week, we’d all be in tip-top mental and physical form, that’s all I can say. ! M___ (who can see auras) told Tom and I after the session that many people’s auras will be absolutely radiating off of them after experiencing the bowls.
And the very next day after the “bowling,” as I call it, the material for this site just began….pouring out. For the rest of December and all of January it was like the floodgates had been unblocked and I was able to finish all the incomplete pieces that had been kicking around for the past year…and then some beyond that. Typing madly every day, I generated the foundation for this site, came up with a site design/color scheme idea, (the orange/red desert against bright blue sky thing has always appealed very strongly to me, not sure why) and by February 2006, “in2worlds” was up and running, thanks to the web design skillz of Tom. :)
Then in March of 2006, a month after my website had been launched, I received an email from a guy that was a member of Tom’s then messageboard forum, asking me about the subject of MILABs. The interesting thing about this guy is that he clearly had issues, and behaved in a very odd way both on the forum and in the related forum chat room, but there were times when he was normal and likeable, so it was a weird mixed bag. This email was one of those times where he was behaving normally and likeable, and was sincerely asking for my input about some questions he had on the subject. The email came in while I was temping at Baptist Church of all things O.o ;D there in a rural area of Virginia outside of Charlottesville (that’s why temping can be fun…..the variety of jobs and industries you get to experience is nuts…) and I clearly remember that day when I got the email and reading it at the computer in the church’s office, and how it was gloomy and gray outside and the way the blinds were closed, and how the lighting looked in the office. I remember all of it like it was yesterday. The day was slow, nothing going on, so I began composing a reply to him. And in doing so I realized……..I really need to be putting this effort into an actual book about this subject. Instead of just answering one person’s questions with one email and then that being it, use that energy to start putting together an actual book……starting with all those handwritten notes I have kicking around at home.
And so I did. Then the Baptist church gig completed and I was off to my next gig, which was a slow, not much to do, $10 an hour gig, and which I fully utilized to continue writing my book. All day long, in between any work that I had to do I madly typed away at my computer at my desk, as if the book was being channeled to me. I just…knew how it needed to be, what needed to be said, how it needed to be organized, like the entire thing was being downloaded into me. All day and all night, whether at work or at home, I wrote, and wrote, and wrote, and wrote, nonstop. At least twelve hours a day, seven days a week, the content pouring out of me. I truly feel in retrospect that me getting that mindless, barely any work to do gig during that exact time period in 2006 was….fortuitous. It was one of the slowest, most pointless gigs I’ve ever had, and under normal circumstances if I hadn’t had a book to write there’s a 95%+ probability I would not have stuck with the gig, asking my agency to place me somewhere else that was more interesting and challenging. Then again, if I hadn’t had a book to write then I probably wouldn’t have been presented with that gig in the first place. ;) So to me, it was obviously for a reason. And by July the first version of “Chasing Phantoms” was done and uploaded to my website.
And really, it’s all because of those bowls. If I hadn’t gotten bowled when I did, this site and the subsequent book probably never would have happened. All things in their right time I guess. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be before that. Who knows.
So anyway, that’s the story, in case anybody’s curious about how it all came to be. It almost didn’t, and it feels to me that this is the only timeline out of all my timelines where this website is happening. It’s a bit weird. Truthfully I still have mixed feelings about it all, like, How did I wind up here…doing this? It doesn’t necessarily feel wrong, but, sometimes I ponder the other time line possibilities, and have wondered whether I’d still do it all again if I found myself back in time, at the fork in the road juncture. I’m not sure, can’t make up my mind on that one. The fact that I even think about it and have hesitation is telling. But it really is like positive stuff spent a lot of time standing behind me giving me repeated kicks in the butt to get me motivated enough to follow through with it all. To get me where I am was like trying to pound a square peg into a round hole. A lot of serious timeline manipulation, of which I’ve witnessed parts of and mention here and there in various writings. If anybody has read either my book, or “The Vortex” write up or my “Thoughts” section, then they’ll probably understand what I’m talking about. It’s like taking a train that’s on one set of tracks and getting it to switch over 25 more sets of tracks to be waaaaay over there instead. Or like I’ve also described it, it was a lot like the universe bopped me on the head one day in the late 90’s and said “Tag! Your timeline is it!” Then the three ring circus music cued up and the rest is history.