by Carissa Conti
(Completely Rewritten and Revised – November 2023)
This could be considered a companion piece to my Gangstalking vs. Hyperdimensional Matrix Attacks article, expanding on various phenomena that tend to get lumped under the same umbrella as gangstalking and targeted individual events. The gangstalking article was long enough as it was, and the phenomena I discuss here is more peripheral, so therefore more suited as a side note. (a side note that is in itself an entire article. !)
Many people can probably relate to the “peripheral weirdness” I’ll be discussing here, and are likely as mystified by it all as I once was. However there are those who run away with it all, believing that these sorts of things are being orchestrated by a large worldwide syndicate of people who are all knowingly “in on it,” available and willing to hone in on them at a moment’s notice. Anytime, anywhere, and anyplace they could possibly move in the world. It’s the same issue I noted throughout my “Gangstalking” article. While I believe that genuine gangstalking/stalking harassment is real, I tend to think it only exists for those who have some sort of obvious reason for it to be happening to them. Political whistle blowers, higher up dissenters, MILABs, those that are intricately involved in higher level woo-woo research with connections to important people, and so on. I’ve personally known such a higher up person who hosts a long standing radio show on all things Truther, and who’s interviewed many high up as well as famous people over the years. And not so coincidentally, has also been on the receiving end of black heli harassment and actual stalking by people out in the world, both of which he’s gotten irrefutable evidence of on camera. For somebody like him it completely makes sense, and he was able to provide actual proof for it. And as mentioned in my gangstalking article, I’ve also been on the receiving end of all types of targeting (as evidenced by my website and book).
But for the majority of people claiming to be targeted, when I’ve watched their vids it’s usually just………face palm. In one major case that I just came across when finishing this rewrite, it’s a guy in Australia who runs entire social media channels devoted to his supposed targeting……and where his vids ironically show nothing but HIM running around his town in the middle of the day being the stalker. Honing in on any random person he sees out and about on the sidewalks or street, filming them and accusing them in his voiceover narration of being gangstalkers out to get him, following and bothering them, even when they’re not even looking at him. In one case a woman he accused in his narration had already been at the grocery store, basket in hand, shopping, before he charged into the store with his camera phone going and started wandering about, honing in on anybody he saw around. She never even looked at him once or went near him, and had no idea he was secretly recording her with plans to put her on the internet and accuse her of being a stalker. O.o And anybody who might be talking on their cell who even so much as glances his way is accused in his vids of secretly communicating with their stalking syndicate. And in one vid he even starts stalking a car around the streets….all because one of their tail lights is out, and he believes that’s a secret signal that they’re gangstalkers out to get him. There’s no evidence that any of the people featured in the vid were doing anything to him. It’s disturbing to watch, and clearly some sort of mental illness. And if gone unchecked may eventually lead to him becoming physical with these people, because from what I’ve seen he’s gotten close to that level of retaliatory reaction.
And I mention this only because a lot of what he thinks he’s experiencing is the same stuff others are claiming with their vids, and in some cases overlaps with what I’m going to be talking about in this piece, but which IMO is not necessarily what they think it is.
All it takes is one or two moments of possible legit weirdness to cause targets to blow it up bigger than it needs to be in their reality. If in fact they have been tailed or monitored by one or two people at some point (and admittedly there were a couple of vid clips that the Australian guy provided that showed very odd/suspicious/unexplainable behavior by people out in the world, directed towards him) they’re now doing all the heavy lifting, so to speak, by allowing it to drive them nuts and start imagining it under every rock and around every corner. There doesn’t need to be hundreds of organized people hired to surround them in life, including pre-emptively positioning themselves at any place they could think to go. Not when their own paranoia and imaginations are seeing it everywhere, all the time, 24/7. I do think a lot of people are “on the radar” in this world actually……… but not always in the way that gangstalkers understand. So the problem is when they believe it’s all being done by physical people acting on their own accords, and that this physical-based phenomenon is bigger than it really is. And then let it get the best of them, running off the rails with paranoia and unstable reactionary behavior. They become their own worst enemy. With worst case scenarios including getting put on psychiatric holds, being forcibly medicated, etc. O.o And all because they can’t/won’t see other theories.
And being real here…..it’s because often times those other theories are beyond what they’re capable of understanding or accepting. They can only handle the idea of physical-based people who are part of an organized group. To the point where they can get angry and verbally combative if they encounter the sorts of theories I’ve presented in my gangstalking write up, like the hyperdimensional component. I’ve literally been commanded via email by one extremely narcissistic, unstable type to remove the gangtalking article from my website now!! There’s no such thing as hyperdimensional anything!!! This went a little beyond somebody who can’t mentally keep up with the theories being presented. Obviously I’m onto something with what I discuss, and it was getting under “something’s” skin (scales? leathery demon wings? ;) ) BIG time if they’re resorting to commanding me to take the entire article down from my own website. !
But even worse, the other big issue we’re contending with as mentioned in my gangstalking article, is the fact that many of these so-called targets revel in the drama of it all. Being in a constant war with the rest of the world that’s always out to get them, 24/7…..and where they insist there’s nothing they can do about any of it to get it to stop. But meanwhile a BIG part of my theories involve exactly how you can get so much of the nonsense to stop. So good luck reasoning with those types. ‘Cause they don’t want it to stop. And the reason I know that is courtesy of supposed targets who I was in communication with years ago, before I put my foot down and decided to no longer respond to any emails about gangstalking. It became very clear with multiple targets I was hearing from that they truly didn’t want it to stop. Any advise or feedback I could offer was rejected…..and the conversations kept being put back onto them, and their victimization, and the latest silly whatever it was that had happened. Diminishing any input I could offer. All they wanted to do was talk about their supposed drama and victimization, nearly all of which was small peanuts being amped up….and nothing more. They didn’t truly want to learn anything and get to the metaphysical bottom of things. This was fun for them deep down, an adventure, their big “something to do” while here. And it made them feel special and important in a few cases. Playing into their ego. And it served as a great way to get attention, sympathy and even a minor bit of fame with their blogs and such. “Get this to STOP?? Are you KIDDING me?! This is all I have in life!!!” O.o
Worth mentioning is how a few years ago I was in touch with a male reader of my website from SoCal named Aaron who was also claiming to be experiencing something akin to the organized stalking phenomenon…….but where he definitely did have the video evidence. He filmed with both a GoPro as well as having cameras set up around the outside of his apartment building. But in his case he truly was capturing some weirdness that couldn’t even be denied….and some of which was the exact same stuff I’ll be going on about in this write up, which is why I mention it. So it was kind of fun to watch his YT vid documenting the same stuff that’s been happening to me. His stuff was truly like nothing I’ve ever seen before……………..other than with me. He and I have been the only two people I’ve ever known that have the exact same sorts of off the chain happenings in our lives. Nobody else who has ever emailed me can compare, let alone has all the video and screencapped proof. O.o But again……..was it organized stalking? Or something else? In his opinion he agreed with the theories I’ve concluded, and which I’ll be getting into here. But I will quote his blog directly, bolded words my own emphasis:
“Let me make something clear: I absolutely do not want to be grouped into the “T.I”, Targeted Individual nonsense that is all over youtube. Most of these people have no real vision and cannot see that whatever is happening appears to be metaphysical or part of a virtual, AI simulated reality. Instead, they choose to use terms like “perp” to describe who they feel are paid individuals who are there to purposely fuck with them. What is really happening appears to go MUCH deeper than that….”
He was one of the rare ones who could see beyond the simplistic explanations and realized the higher elements at work here. (He was the most intelligent and interesting person to ever email me about the gangstalking phenomenon and all around “targeting by hyperdimensional forces” subject. In my “Dreamtime vs. Waking Life” write up I quoted his theory that he emailed me once, via a recording of himself speaking, talking about hyperdimensional entities using our sleeping minds as a means to meet up with each other while we sleep. Something I realized in retrospect may have happened to me on multiple occasions.) Though in my opinion there’s even more to it than what he mentioned, and I’ll be getting into those additional components later in this write up.
But the few that do manage to arrive at this level of realization have a couple of key things in common from what I’ve seen: A higher than average IQ for starters, and most importantly, a much broader research base concerning higher level metaphysical concepts. This allows them to objectively watch and analyze the world around them, and come to different, and more accurate, conclusions than the majority of self professed targets. As even noted in my gangstalking article, many people are missing most of the pieces of the puzzle here, so it’s understandable that they’re unable to come up with alternate theories to explain the weirdness they may be experiencing. And they have no quality, aware and intelligent people around them to discuss any of this with in person. They go online looking for answers…….and usually always come across very limited, if not outright disinformation-oriented gangstalking/targeting sites that promote nothing but a strictly physical-based explanation, and in some cases, possibly deliberately designed to mislead. (It makes me happy to know that my website was at least one major influence on Aaron being able to get those pivotal, missing pieces of the puzzle to make better sense of his life happenings. That was the entire purpose of me doing what I do – counteract the nonsense, help steer people in a better direction.)
My gangstalking article did actually cover some aspects of the more minor weirdness that people mistakenly lump into the stalking/targeting category, including unbelievable synchronicities that tend to involve other people, “Glitches in the Matrix,” inadvertent reality creation/ manipulation, as well as repeatedly drawing in certain types of negative people and negative reactions from people due to what’s floating around in one’s personal field. All of which can understandably, though often wrongly, be interpreted as being the result of a group of stalkers trying to deliberately perpetrate something against a “TI.” And meanwhile this write up will cover even more of the peripheral, strange-o weirdness, which for some people may be interpreted as if it’s being orchestrated by a group of strictly physical-based “perps” ;) who are all knowingly “IN ON IT,” but where that’s not actually the case. Though it is still something valid and weird. It’s a wide variety of happenings, a little something for everyone you could say. So I’m sure it will be relatable to many who read this. There’s also going to be people reading this who, while not interpreting things through the lens of “gangstalkers!!” and targeting, have still noticed the unbelievable weirdness and uncanny synchronous timing of much of what I outline, and have maybe wondered what the explanations could be.
I’ve decided to order things from the most innocuous types of incidents, on up to the more sinister feeling. So it may not seem like much at first, but it gets weird, trust me. ;)
The Timing of Things
Let’s start with one of the most prevalent, though innocuous subjects of all….the bad timing of things. This can manifest in a variety of ways. Some of the most common include the following…..
Being repeatedly blocked at every turn in multiple ways. There you are just trying to get from Point A to Point B, but find yourself being repeatedly blocked/hindered almost every step of the way, to where it’s bordering on absurdity in some instances.
The major aspect of this phenomenon as I’ve often experienced it involves pedestrians, cars, bicyclists, you name it, suddenly being in front of my car, or behind my car, when I need to pull out, back up, take off, etc., blocking me. Can also involve any of these things swerving or jumping in front of my car. It’s also happened to me back when I was bicycling a lot to/from the beach. The pedestrian one is particularly annoying, because they always seem to find themselves just….ambling along, directly behind my car, right when I need to back out. Something like that for drivers who aren’t attentive can result in severe injury, or even death. Which is why it’s like “ARRRGGHHH!!!” Another form of this involves needing to enter, exit or turn into a parking lot or side street, and there is the one lone pedestrian out of nowhere, finding themselves smack in the middle of the road where I’m trying to enter/exit/turn, blocking me, with that perfect alignment in spacetime. (And trust me…I’ve been on the other end of this one, as we’ll soon see…)
On the one hand it’s important to note that sometimes, life is blocking us to help us out. Make sure we’re not in the wrong place at the wrong time. Many people probably have an anecdote that shows that in their own lives. Because of a delay, or a block, or some sort of impediment, they narrowly missed being a part of some accident, or other negative situation. However I’m talking about when blocks and interference are happening just for the sake of it, and where it just keeps happening. Which is the giveaway of something else going on. Because something I’ve noticed is that when the “being blocked while driving or bicycling” thing happens, it usually doesn’t just happen once. It’ll happen multiple times back to back throughout a several hour or one day period, very overtly. And via any means that’s available in the vicinity. Pedestrians, bicyclists, other motorists, just anything that is handy. So there’s no way to NOT notice it. It’s also why I say it can just get to the point of absurdity.
A good example of the “multiple times, back to back blocking” thing happened back on 12/20/13 here in Boca, when Tom and I were heading out to run errands and get food. And I mention the date only because I’m going to be touching on this anecdote again later, in the theories section. It started the second I was ready to back out of my parking spot in our apartment complex, and suddenly there was a guy, exactly behind my car, out of nowhere. Then later that night when we were trying to pull out of the parking spot at Shake Shack another car was also reversing behind me, thwarting me. Then another car rolled behind me, thwarting me. Then yet another car had its lights in reverse, but would not go. It just sat there acting like it wanted to reverse. Finally I just went. Then we finally got back home later and I needed to turn left into the available parking spot, only, there was a large pick up truck slowly making its way through the lot so the timing was that it was exactly in front of that spot, blocking it, at the moment I wanted to turn into it. I just kept getting blocked that night, repeatedly.
Each one taken individually doesn’t necessarily mean anything, but the fact everything happened within two hours was…….interesting. And keeping in mind, this is a phenomenon I’ve experienced intermittently for YEARS. And now I even have video evidence of it, since I’ve had a dual dash cam system installed in my car. So there was one particular day in October 2022 for example, where I have the front and rear dash cam vids of cars or trucks repeatedly swerving into my lane while I was driving to work from work, and on my lunch break (one of which could have caused an accident had I not been alert) along with pedestrians and such winding up directly in my path when trying to turn, or pull out of a lot. It was wild. Just one day out of nowhere everybody decided to block me/cut me off, all day, and I got it all on vid.
And another good example happened around 2016. It was a Friday afternoon, and I was able to leave work early at 4:30 pm, since all my work was done and nothing was going on. And there’s a reason I mention leaving early, which I’ll be getting back to later. Needed to stop by the FedEx drop box down the street first though…..and proceeded to find a large big rig blocking the main parking lot entrance, causing me to have to go down the street to find the secondary entrance instead. Didn’t think much of it. Got that taken care of, then once I was on Clint Moore Road, officially on my way home, a car decided to swing out in front of me, of all cars, to do its U turn, causing me to have to hit the brakes. There was nobody behind me so they could have waited a few seconds, but didn’t. Then a second car did the same thing right after. The second car completed its U-ey………in a lane that was soon going to merge with mine. Meaning, he was about to wind up in front of me, thus, blocking me in yet another way. So in order to get around him and prevent that I moved over to the left lane………but which I soon saw was partially blocked up ahead by some car in the middle of the road trying to get across Clint Moore to the other side. The dum dum’s car was sideways, completely blocking the far left lane in their incorrect attempt at getting straight across the road at a spot that was not conducive for that, versus finding a turn lane to use up ahead in the road. So now I just had to come to a full stop in the middle of the road, since the rear end of this car was sticking out halfway across the left lane.
In total we’re looking at four “blocks/impediments/stuff getting in the way” within less than five minutes time. Were these gangstalkers? No. Was something odd happening though? Yes. And again, we’ll be getting back to theories later on.
And then too many times to even count I’ve experienced instances where I’m watching cars or trucks almost seeming to wait for me to approach……when there’s nobody else behind me, mind you, that’s the key point….before suddenly jumping out in front of my car, causing me to have to hit the brakes, as they then proceed to putt-putt slowly in front of me (in at least one case at only 10 mph!!) holding me back. So it’s not like they jump in front of me and then go fast, and be on their way.
But this then ties into the putt-putt drivers phenomenon in general that I was plagued with when we used to live in Charlottesville, which is definitely another form of being blocked/hindered. I was ALWAYS finding myself behind drivers that were crawling along at bizarrely slow speeds, WAY under the speed limit (in some instances we’re talking 10, 15 mph in zones that were 30-45, same as the cars/trucks jumping in front of me and then going abnormally slow, mentioned above). And always on roads that were a single lane in each direction, and where I wasn’t legally allowed to pass. Of course. It was happening enough that eventually Tom began witnessing it while driving passenger with me. It didn’t seem to happen to him when he was driving. I got so fed up by it all I vowed to begin illegally passing any of these 10 mph putt-putt cars to get around them. I don’t care, I’m done, enough, no more. !!! And I did. One incident after another and another, just started illegally passing each one wherever it was happening, and that seemed to put a stop to the phenomenon.
And related to that how I’ve also experienced multiple instances of cars, but usually delivery trucks or contractor trucks, stopping and temporarily parking directly behind MY car in a parking lot out of every other car they could do that to, either to make some deliveries, wait for their friends, or just to get themselves situated in general. So there I am, needing to get in my car to go to work, etc…….but I’m blocked. ‘Cause that’s their timing. And I was the one to pick to park behind out of everybody. (It happened again while finishing up this rewrite! I was exiting our apartment, heading to my car to get to an appointment…..right as the Boca Raton PD and paramedics showed up due to some medical issue with one of our neighbors. Not the first time either. They’re Russian or Ukrainian immigrants, and apparently the guy drinks himself into a stupor, then somebody he knows gets concerned and calls 911, then they have to haul him off to the hospital, slap him around, dump some cold water on his head, whatever you do to somebody in that situation. ;D But as I was walking to my car the ambulance pulls into the parking lot…..and comes to a rest behind multiple cars, with mine being on the far edge of it. Enough so that I now wouldn’t be able to back out. So I just stop, looking at this unbelievable timing happening right in front of me. As they exited the ambulance I let them know that I was just about to get in my car and leave, I have to go, but that’s my car right there, they’re blocking me….. Not a problem, and they moved the ambulance forward to give me room. But all I could do was just shake my head and kind of laugh about it as I got in my car. Of COURSE that was the exact timing for when they roll up…..of course that was where they chose to park!)
Funny enough, a big part of the stalking harassment video by that guy named Aaron, mentioned at the beginning, involves all forms of what seems to be “deliberate intersecting” with others, who are always strategically timed to be crossing his path or outright blocking him at the specific moments that he shows up on foot or on bike. Opening the gate to exit onto the sidewalk….without even looking he pauses ‘cause he already KNOWS there’s going to be somebody whizzing by at that exact moment. And guess what, there is. So if he hadn’t paused he would have collided with the bicyclist. Or where he’s on his own bike, about to pull out of the garage into the street, and some dude just amblin’ down the sidewalk finds himself smack in front of him at that exact moment. Or when Aaron was on his bike returning home, and some woman who’d been on the sidewalk suddenly veers off and crosses the street, setting the stage for yet another exact moment intersection, because that just happened to be her timing. But which he dodged, because he was aware and alert.
Another even more noteworthy incident that he featured in his vid shows him arriving home on his bike….right as a cop SUV is suddenly there, pulling a weird, confused seeming U turn into the garage entrance of Aaron’s building. It created an actual physical blockade directly in front of Aaron on his bike on the sidewalk, so that Aaron had to veer around the SUV. It wasn’t like the cop was U-turning with purpose, maybe because he had just gotten a call on his radio or something. No. It was slow, and like I said, confused-seeming. Like he had no real purpose in what he was doing. Just…..meandering around. lalala. And he manages to pull himself directly in front of Aaron’s approaching bike of all things, making Aaron have to skirt around him. Reminds me of some of the incidents I’ve experienced, with confused seeming people or motorists just….pulling in front of me, or ambling in front of me, and where I want to yell out, DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHERE YOU’RE GOING?!? O.o So it was definitely interesting to watch how Aaron got multiple vid evidence of this phenomenon at work, thanks to either wearing a GoPro or having cameras installed outside his building filming the streets and sidewalks.
And on the flip end of this phenomenon would be…..
Being the person who seems to be in the way of every single other person on the road. As just mentioned I’ve been on the other side of this phenomenon. I touched on it in fact in my “Gangstalking” article. It’s the anecdote describing this one time when I was rollerblading up and down the long, straight streets of our neighborhood in Fort Lauderdale, back when we lived there, and the way in which I repeatedly found myself approaching a driveway…..right as a car was hovering behind me, needing to turn into that driveway. But there I was, in their way. And it just kept happening, over and over during that one rollerblading endeavor when it had never happened before. Where were all these cars even coming from?? Because we’re talking over a dozen instances, back to back. Why did it keep aligning so that every single car was approaching their driveway at the exact moment I was there??? It was so absurd, and since it would not stop happening I finally just had to give it up and go home. !!!
But that’s considered a classic in gangstalking literature – being tailed/followed, people invading one’s space, an increase in auto traffic on normally quiet streets, etc. etc. And for people who believe that they have other things already occurring to them, when you add something like this on top of everything else, they often times jump to wrong conclusions. Do I believe that a group of hired “stalker perps” were sent in to pretend to be homeowners pulling into any driveway I could possibly find myself rollerblading in front of? No. But was something weird and completely improbable happening? Absolutely.
The same thing has happened when bicycling as well. What makes it a verifiable phenomenon IMO is when it’s happened when the roads are empty, like those times I used to bike to the beach to watch the sunrise when it was still dark out, on the weekends. There I was cruising along in the darkness (all my headlights on though…) on a totally empty road, passing in front of a side street, when suddenly some lone, rando car or truck would show up out of nowhere, needing to turn there at the same exact moment. So now they had to pause/stop and wait for me to get out of their way. Definitely happened more than once. Who were these people, and where were they even going at 5:45 in the morning?? But you know what…..they were probably thinking the EXACT same thing about me. “Who in the frickity frack is riding a bike through the streets of Boca at 6 in the morning on a Sunday?!” ;D Diehard sunrise watchers headin’ to the beach, what can I say. So it definitely goes both ways, and that’s something that self professed TI’s tend to forget when it comes to the minor weirdness like this.
Also back when I used to bike to the beach in the early a.m. I would be trying to exit our apartment complex parking lot, again, in the dark, when nobody else is on the road, but the second I needed to make that left exit out, a lone car or truck would appear out of nowhere, blocking me. What made it annoying is because the road is not flat/flush with the parking lot and sidewalk. It’s raised, probably for drainage reasons. So once you’re stopped/blocked you have to make an effort to push off again and resume, due to the slight incline. So the interference breaks momentum in two ways. This one happened too many times to count back in the day. Just always that one lone car/truck at that exact moment.
Converging in the same spot at the same moment in time with other people…..and sometimes with somebody you definitely don’t want to be converging with. There you are walking along a totally empty sidewalk, or in a completely empty parking lot, could be anywhere, and there’s nobody else around for like a mile…. except for this one other person who also needs to be exactly where you are, so you’re in each others way. And it doesn’t just happen once. It’s something that happens enough times that you can’t help but notice, and it definitely becomes WEIRD. I’ve heard from multiple people over the years describing this phenomenon that has also plagued me.
My first inclination (because of the nature of my temperament) is to immediately think, “REALLY!?!? YOU JUST HAD TO BE HERE IN THIS PARTICULAR SPOT AT THIS EXACT MOMENT?!? SERIOUSLY, WHERE’D YOU EVEN COME FROM!!? THE ENTIRE STREET/PARKING LOT/SIDEWALK IS EMPTY!!!!” :D So annoying. This used to happen all the time years ago when we lived in Charlottesville, when I needed to walk across the Belmont Bridge to get into downtown to go to work. So many times there wasn’t a single other person around….except for one other random person, and where things were timed so that we were coming together on the sidewalk of the bridge at the same exact time, and needed to be occupying the same exact point in space-time.
It’s been happening to me in droves here in Florida as well, usually when I decide to go for a walk around our apartment complex, get some sun, look at critters, etc. Multiple times I’ve found myself converging on an empty sidewalk with one other lone person, no matter where I am, where we’re both needing to occupy the same moment in spacetime, going in the exact same direction.
As one guy who emailed me about this years ago pointed out, something he tries to remind himself to ease the annoyance is that we’re equally in their way just as much as they are in ours. Same thing mentioned in the previous section. For all we know they’re thinking the same thing about us. Of course to those people who believe themselves to be targeted, that’s not the case. These other people are in THEIR way, period. And as far as the self professed targets are concerned, “the others” are quite obviously doing it on purpose.
As always, this could definitely be the case in some circumstances…..but definitely not all. IF at all. Why? Because I’ve seen how some of the people who’ve been involved in this, like in the Belmont Bridge instances, were other people who worked at the same place I worked. And in my apartment complex these are neighbors. But there’s also no denying that nobody was around except for me and that other person, trying to occupy the same space at the same time. So something weird is up, which we’ll get back to in a short bit.
The Aaron guy mentioned a few times now had a really interesting variation of this phenomenon that can’t even be denied as being a form of “woo.” But it involves how he’ll go into a store late at night or something (like a drugstore or whatever) needing to buy something specific, and there’s only one other person around. Who happens to be in the same aisle he needs to be. Standing in front of the exact thing he needs to buy. O.o So these two random strangers are converging in the same spot at the same time, improbably. And the fact it’s happened to him repeatedly has made it a full fledged “THING” in his reality. He needs to buy whatever-whatever, but guess what…..there’s only one other person in the entire store, standing right in front of that product. So bizarre.
But as far as what the title of this section mentioned….instances of converging with people that you sometimes DON’T want to be….that’s where it can get bizarre. Here’s a very specific for instance: We used to have this horrible neighbor in our current apartment building in Boca named Skip that everybody hated, for very good reason. He was this old, batshit crazy guy that Tom nicknamed the “Demented Papa Smurf” due to his white beard, and the fact that you know…..he’s demented. He didn’t have a life, so he made bothering other people and “nosing around” his hobby. Always poking around the parking lot looking in people’s cars, even looking into people’s apartment windows (so his other nickname was Peeping Skip), messing around with people’s laundry in the laundry room, acting like a creepy pest to any attractive women neighbors (his schtick was to feign forced “helpfulness,” pretending to try to look out for them for various things, always acting like the innocent, helpful martyr, but where it crossed boundaries and became massively annoying. He truly believed he was hot and that women wanted him, as he once expressed to one of the female employees in the complex’s leasing office.) And when confronted about anything it was always immediate lying, denying, gaslighting or excuses that tried to paint himself in an innocent, helpful way. He was never wrong about anything, and never guilty of any bad behavior as far as he was concerned. No apologies, no admittances of anything.
He had also been busted (when he thought nobody was looking) kicking/hurting one of the friendly stray cats that multiple neighbors were helping to look after, us included, and everybody suspected he eventually killed her, and another friendly stray we were all also helping to take care of. :/ It was a team effort, with multiple neighbors helping to look out for the cats in some way. Until Skip seems to have finally had his way with them and made them disappear, poisoned them, we don’t know what happened. During one confrontation with him he even FINALLY admitted to hating those cats, and didn’t deny hurting them after first tying to lie, lie, lie his way out of it the accusation. But this was a narcissistic troublemaker creep that multiple people got into altercations with, Tom and I included, and even his own family members wanted nothing to do with him, as far as what the leasing office let us know. (One time we heard one of our fellow neighbor couples fighting with Skip on the balcony hallway and I was like, OOOOHHH!! MATT AND ALEX [as in Alexandra] ARE FIGHTING WITH SKIP!!! WE GOTTA HAVE THEIR BACKS!!!!” and ran out and joined them. ;D Had no idea what they were even fighting about. Just knew that if they’re fighting with Skip then it’s not for nothing…..he done did SOMETHIN’. ;) Became four against one, as he tried to deny what they were claiming about him….but which was all the same stuff Skip was always doing to us, and others. So they thanked us later for backing them up.) But Skip lived there for years before finally being forced out, and was always creeping and skulking about, always up to no good. Definitely somebody we did NOT want to have to run into unnecessarily, just because we could not STAND this guy. I didn’t want to even see his face.
But wouldn’t you know it………..not only would we run into him, but it became truly outrageous in terms of the way it was happening. Not only for me, but for Tom too. So one of those rare times where this strange type of phenomenon I’m talking about here was happening to him as well. (Much of what I discuss here doesn’t happen to him, even though we live together and are intertwined in each other’s lives. It’s a key piece of the puzzle, with reasons for that, which again, we’ll be getting back to later.) If I wented to bring trash down to the dumpster…Skip was there at the same moment. Same thing for Tom too. If I, or both Tom and I, were leaving to go out…Skip was there in the stairwell. If I needed to do laundry…Skip would be down by the laundry room. And then we’d keep running into him over and over at our local Publix supermarket, no matter when we went.
And then it just got to the point where Tom and I would even just open our apartment door……at the EXACT moment Skip was walking past our door. Can’t even say how many times THAT one happened. O.o That’s where it started getting freaky. Open the door….Skip’s right there, walking by. Repeatedly. And then it ramped up even more. Because there were multiple times where we’d open our door, or step out into the hallway balcony, right as Skip’s car was entering into the parking lot below, so the timing was perfect. Open the door….there’s Skip’s car. Over, and over, countless times. Or we’d go to step outside…..and he would be sitting in his idling car down below, right under our apartment. Making it so now we can’t just stand on our balcony, because he’s right there, down below, facing us, ruining everything. That happened more than once as well.
It just became so obnoxious that I even made a dedicated post about it on my Gab. So this was a very real phenomenon that just got worse and worse as time went on, the more we felt like we hated this dude, and the more pissed off we kept getting at how he was always interfering with us just being able to live our lives without having to see his face everywhere. !!! And even after he was forced out………….it still happened. !!!! Because Skip would periodically return back to the apartment complex. We don’t know why. But it was like the dude couldn’t stay away. So we continued to keep running into him. Including opening our door right as his car was pulling into the lot down below, or seeing him in the parking lot.
Another time I was trying to back my car out……right as car was suddenly passing behind me, in my way, blocking me. Had to hit the brakes. And guess who it was, as Tom realized when he looked back at the car?
Skip. Returning for a visit. At that exact moment.
O.o
And now it’s started happening with another neighbor I’m not fond of. Some 20-something chick named Veronica, with the bleached out fried platinum hair, overweight body packed into skin tight tacky clothes that have no style or class (and which don’t even make sense, fashion-wise….) who smokes weed so the weed smoke wafts through our vents from her apartment, who’s gotten into full on physical domestic violence disputes with some thug that used to come around in the middle of the night, has these occasional loud, crying, screaming, immature/childish emotional meltdown conversations on her phone that we can hear through the vent, was doing this thing every single morning for MONTHS where she was coughing/gagging/vomiting super loud into her toilet after showering, and which could be heard throughout our entire apartment, has had other “friends” or who knows what showing up outside her door, screaming and melting down at her (she seems to have a lot of conflict with people…..) and then holding the occasional rowdy get together with a bunch of what seems to be late teens to early 20-somethings (can’t figure that one out) who are in and out of the apartment and on the outside hall/balcony for hours, making an absolute racket. And in general is just a tacky, gross, immature loudmouth. Of all the people to be sharing a wall with…… And wouldn’t you know it, it’s now become Skip 2.0 Constantly running into her in impossible ways at every turn, which never happened before. AND….where it doesn’t happen to Tom. Because Tom’s indifferent to her and that situation. Just kind of a shoulder shrugging, “whatever” attitude. It takes a lot to get under his skin. Skip managed to do it, but people like her barely even register on his radar. So it shows that this phenomenon is absolutely focused, a very important point that we’ll getting back into later.
But with Veronica the most common occurrence is me feeling the need to open our apartment door to go do something or check on something….right as she’s opening her door (which faces ours) at the exact same moment. :/ Or leaving our apartment…….right as she’s coming down the hall towards me. Has happened now too many times to count. As I was in the process of rewriting this there was an afternoon where I ran into her three times in ridiculous ways. Went to leave my apartment…right as she was. So we were right behind each other. Then our cars followed each other for half my trip. I ran all my errands, of which included a spontaneous trip to the gas station, because I was making it all up as I went along, then got back home….at the same moment she did. Despite me winging it in terms of where I was going. So we would have been trying to occupy the same moment in spacetime on the sidewalk had I not waited it out in my car. Then later in the afternoon I decided…….NOW is the exact moment I need to go check if the laundry room is open for me to do laundry! And even had the thought that there’s no freaking WAY we’re going to run into each other, that would be absolutely RIDICULOUS, it won’t happen……!
Exited our apartment and entered into the hall to head down to the laundry room……at the exact moment she was walking towards me in the hall.
:/
Improbable clustering of chaos. Continuing with the theme of “bad timing” is the age old “when it rains, it pours” phenomenon that even mainstream people experience and notice. It’s something everyday people have mentioned to me at my various jobs over the years. The most common way it’s manifested for me, and probably others, is that I can go for stretches of time where nothing is going on at my job, where I sit at the front desk. Then suddenly somebody will call in on the phone, and actually sometimes multiple people, at the exact same moment a customer/client/vendor, sometimes several, including delivery drivers and such, walk in the door. Everybody needing to be helped at the exact same moment, when just prior nothing was happening at all. Just always that. There have been days where this happened more than once. Ongoing clusters of chaos, versus things being evenly spread out. It can happen in all sorts of ways and in any type of life situation, but it’s really noticeable when it happens at work, since many people hate their jobs anyway. ;) So it just stands out as very noticeable aggravations, on top of a job they often times don’t want to be at in the first place. (Luckily I really like my current job so admittedly it doesn’t bother me when this is happening. I’ll be peppy with everybody clustering around me, getting everybody’s needs sorted out, because luckily it’s never anything negative going on. Plus I try to be mindful about being a positive or at least neutral factor in everybody’s day….not a grumpy and unfriendly one.)
And while it’s not something that can be pinned on “gangstalkers!!” it definitely seems to be a legit, non-accidental phenomenon that’s fitting for everything I’m talking about in this write up. (Related to this is how, too many times to count, I’ve needed to run to the restroom, or go do something NOW at my job, and that’s the moment everybody decides to call in on the phone and/or come into the lobby. Repeated interference with being able to do whatever it is I set my mind on doing. Doesn’t happen all the time, but it’s happened enough to notice the weird timing.)
And same as one of the examples above…..I’ve been on the other end of this phenomenon as well. I’ve been that person who shows up some place, needing to get in the line for something, right when everybody else decides to show up too. And there’s only one cashier or service rep available. So I’ve been part of that “cluster of chaos” for somebody else. A bit like something is manipulating all of us people at the same moment, so that THIS was our timing, and which makes me feel bad for the cashier or service rep. And then of course these clusters of chaos mean all the people needing assistance are going to have to wait and experience that delay. So everybody involved has the potential to get exasperated.
Getting honed in on by needy, and even haranguing/bullying strangers….to the point of outrageousness and uncanny timing
Now we’re going to move into the incidents that are delving into the slightly nefarious. It involves the way in which something about my vibe causes people to zero in on me like I have a homing beacon attached to my head or something. It’s freaky, and gotten downright aggravating. This sort of thing has been going on with me in varying ways and to varying degrees for years, but it really picked up after we moved back down to Florida over ten years ago, which is a massively populated urban area that allows for many opportunities for this sort of thing.
When we were still living in Charlottesville it always seemed to involve random strangers stopping me on the street or pulling up alongside me in a car and imploring me for directions. Even better when there were other people around……… but they focus on me, like they don’t even see the others. I actually watched this happen one time. An older, Boomer couple on the downtown pedestrian Mall were walking past me, and I saw the woman look around at the various people in our immediate area, with this desperate look on her face and glazed over eyes…..then honed right in on me, eyes coming into focus, and even reaching her arm out to make sure to get my attention and force me to stop. Then proceeded to do the whole “imploring for directions” thing. Inside I was like, DAHHHH!! WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME?!?
That was Cville, but as mentioned it continued into Florida. A few years ago before the pLandemic I worked at an office that involved a big parking garage….where I was always “THE ONE” getting honed in by random people passing by me in their cars, hanging out, yelling for me to stop and help them with directions and who knows what. Pretty much all women, in case anybody’s wondering. But it just got to the point where I began ignoring things as best as I could, pretending I couldn’t hear or see what was going on. Only because there were a few over the top incidents that were just NOT normal by any means, which I can’t remember the details of by this point, but where the women crossed the line with their demanding and weird entitlement. Behavior I myself would not engage in with strangers by any means. So it’s what caused me to resort to this ignoring thing. As always…..a few rotten apples spoil it for the bunch.
Another major place where this has happened here in Florida is at the beach. And a big part of the issue I’ve noticed with this phenomenon (no matter where it’s happening actually), is that it would happen when I was deep in my own head. Almost like I was in a bubble of sorts. So these people were catching me off guard, whether in a parking garage, or at the beach, or what have you, and I’d have to pull myself out of the realm bubble I was submerged in, and “come back out” to the “real” world. (I hardly go to the beach anymore by this point, but throughout 2013-2015 I was going ALL the time. Always biking there after work or on the weekends, since it’s only a mile and a half away. That’s when all the beach incidents I’m about to elaborate on were happening….and it’s exactly WHY they were happening as well. Public beaches in highly populated urban areas have the potential for any type of person to be there, at any time, 24/7. It’s a “High Risk Zone” you could say.)
So in other words, I wasn’t prepared for these sudden interactions, and my mindset was like, “huh…..?” And that’s how they’d get me. I’d automatically just respond to their initial calling out to me/question….and then it would be too late. I was already sucked in. Can’t just walk away now. :/ And one question would lead to another, and another, and another, guaranteed, every time. It was never some nice, easy, one off deal. :/ There’s just no getting away from people like that, no matter what type of situation it’s happening in. So the key to avoiding this phenomenon was being able to catch myself before responding in any way…..which required being able to snap into mindful awareness despite how deeply I may be entrenched in my own thoughts.
The following are some great examples of this. And I want to include both the innocuous incidents of honing as well as the more obnoxious and unnerving, because both types are happening for their own reasons, which we’ll be expanding on later, and so therefore both need to be included.
Although admittedly I did try to duck out and say no (though again…not as forcefully as I needed to be….) but he was insistent and pushy. As these entitled types always are. There’s no such thing as “NO” for them. Probably because they never heard “NO” growing up. So to be polite I conceded, like FINE, one quick pic, then I’ll be on my way.
Only it wasn’t quick. :/ It’s NEVER a one-and-done straight forward situation with this phenomenon. He told me to get the sun behind them. But instead of getting into position he and his friends were all chaotic and running around, the girls shriek laughing, completely oblivious like three year old children. I got pissed and thrust his phone back towards him, waving it at him in the air for him to take. “I don’t have time for this! I need to go, the sun’s already rising!……”
His response? Said in a patronizing frat boy sounding voice with his dead eyes and slack face, “You seem kind of upset…” The whole “turning things back around on me” manipulative schtick. At that point he’s really lucky that I didn’t toss his phone into the f’ing ocean. That’s all I can say. I bailed out, really annoyed, the sunrise totally ruined since it had already broken through the horizon and I wasn’t able to capture that on video. I tried to get my vibe back on track and not let it ruin the rest of the sunrise, but once I’m riled up like that it’s hard. The reason I was so riled up is because his type of personality is one that I’ve encountered a lot back in rich south Orange County, California. Good looking arrogant 20-something guys who obviously come from well off families, and who’ve been spoiled their whole lives, and have such a sense of arrogant entitlement, imposing themselves on the “peasants” around them, used to always getting what they want on demand, due to their looks and what their upbringing has taught them. And they always seem to have that dead eyed/Sanpaku eyed thing going on. Like a soulless drone with their bored/dull/apathetic energy. And when they cross the paths of a chick who doesn’t just fall into line with them and isn’t impressed they have that super casual, though patronizing tone (with those dead eyes and slack faces…) that tries to make it look like you must be the one with the problem. I’ve encountered the fakely casual and patronizing “gee, you seem upset” routine before, after they did something obnoxious. To say I loathe those types is putting it mildly. But, that’s probably why it happened. ;) Pop quiz….will you pass? Hard nope to that. Giant F!
The best example was the obnoxious northeast woman who asked me a question in a demanding sort of way, which obviously rubbed me the wrong way, to which I told her “I don’t know.” Then made sure to point out “I don’t work here.” She immediately responded full of haughty defensiveness, “I know that, I just thought you would know!!!” Like I was her personal customer service representative, there to serve her, the Queen. Had another one like that one time back in Whole Foods in Cville, got irritated when I wasn’t excited to bend over backwards helping her with her silly question…… even though I have no obligation to, because I’m a total stranger and don’t even work there. Seriously, how far up one’s ass does one’s head have to be crammed to be THAT obliviously entitled and demanding?? The next time I encounter somebody like this I’m just going to be like, “Your pushy, entitled personality that treats random strangers like your own personal customer service reps is kind of fascinating.” Then walk away. ;D
But that’s the thing….the moment you put your foot down and are prepared and ready to take a situation on should it happen again……..it usually doesn’t. It just suddenly stops, because now you’ve learned and know what to do. And maybe that’s the whole point. Like a test. Or maybe it’s because of a change in personal frequency. Or maybe both, depending on the situation.
It’s definitely a repeating pattern though for me, being seen/perceived/intuited, whatever it is, as a meek pushover that can be bossed around and made demands of. Like a weak, soft, peasant servant sort of thing. Then the haranguers get angry/incensed/offended when I don’t tolerate it, and the response isn’t matching AT all what was perceived/seen about my outward appearance, and the discrepancy throws them for a loop. It’s very interesting to watch. But it’s important to point out, and something for people to keep in mind – the idea of, you may perceive yourself in a certain way, but it doesn’t mean that’s how you come across to others. Others are seeing/intuiting things that you may not even be aware of about yourself, based on your perceived age, body type/size, your face, clothes, hair, and how you carry yourself in general. In my case I may feel calm, confident, full of self awareness and with a strong, developed ego core, but I’ve DEFINITELY been perceived as quiet, meek, weak, small, little, nobody/nothing/beneath/less than/inferior, and therefore here to serve them and their out of control, distorted egos.
I’ve also encountered several middle aged northeast women acting kind of fruitcakey in clothing stores, where they just start….talking at me, about the clothes or whatnot, making comments, holding things up, wondering how it looks, asking questions, etc. But while simultaneously not even really looking me in the eye. So…..talking at me, as if I’m just an object. (and no, they didn’t have some ear pods in their ears, talking on a cell.) You could replace me with anybody – another female, a dude, a kid in a stroller, a store mannequin, a plant, it wouldn’t matter to them. In these cases it definitely seems to be a northeast (NY, NJ) thing, since the culture up there is very different from the rest of the country. But still, I don’t discount the fact that it’s happened to me several times. With these types I’ve learned to just not say anything, and leave them there literally talking and commenting to the air since they can’t even be bothered to look me in the eye or try to acknowledge me as an actual, individual person. If somebody is going to act crazy like that, basically talking to themselves and behaving as if they’re floating through a dream, then I’m not obligated to respond. (That could be a good response to these types – “Hey………….you’re awake. Not in a dream.” Then walk away. :D )
“How are you doing??” he calls out to me again. “Everything going okay???”
Inside I felt nothing, due to newfound awareness that I’ll get back to in a second, versus feeling riled up and annoyed/defensive like I used to, and I continued to not even acknowledge that I heard this happening. While I never looked up to see his face, I do know that nobody else was around, so it was absolutely me that he was talking to. Once it became clear I wasn’t even acknowledging him like I was deaf, I heard him mumble something nervously to himself, then he gave it up. ;D Love it. Not the first time I’ve experienced that reaction either, when I’ve ignored haranguers. They unravel when they receive zero acknowledgment, and instantly go from confident honing to nervous mumbling. By the time I got up to leave I didn’t see anybody around. If he’d still been lurking about and made any kind of point of continuing to try to harangue me I would have just looked him straight in the eye with a blank poker face and my ear buds playing tunes in my ears, and walked right on past him, ignoring him.
Keeping in mind the most important point of all – As a small/petite, unarmed female who was at a public beach by myself it means I’m never under any obligation to entertain the antics of any strange man who’s approaching me. That’s the bottom line right there. And ESPECIALLY if what they’re saying is off kilter and unnecessary, and/or if their behavior is out of bounds.
The reason I consider this haranguing, and the reason I opted for this type of response, is because it’s not the first time some total stranger – always some weird guy – has honed in on me and intently “greeted” me and demanded to know how I was doing, and whether things were okay. That’s what gets me about it too – the way these randos demand/command to know how I am and how things are going. Implying that clearly something must be wrong with me, and/or that I need to answer to these complete strangers. It’s a power balance tactic for starters, a way for somebody to posture themselves from the get-go as being “THE ONE IN CONTROL.” Exactly the way a cop would behave when approaching somebody they’ve been called to check on. But it’s also a form of gaslighting. Make the person they’re targeting/honing in on feel like there’s clearly something wrong with them, they’re weird/strange, or some crazy oddball that needs to be questioned, no matter how normal they may look, or are behaving. And actually, a good response (if one were so inclined to choose to engage in this exchange) would be “I think the real question here is how are you doing, because normal people don’t go up to complete strangers and demand that they say hi and tell them how they’re doing.” I’ll definitely have to remember that one. ;D Though ultimately what I’ve learned is that the best response to haranguers is no response. You can’t go wrong with it. It gives the other person absolutely nothing to work with. It’s a refusal to be pulled into somebody else’s nonsense and games. There they are throwing stuff at you verbally, looking to forcibly pull you into their realm so they can feed on your energy, create annoyance and discombobulation that throws you off for however long, etc……….and you just step over them, figuratively speaking, and keep going. The end.
The problem that a lot of people have is that they mistakenly view the offending haranguer as somebody that’s important enough to be worth getting upset over, and feeling like they need to address what’s happening. (That’s often been me, so I totally get it.) But seriously……who the eff are these people? Nobody. That’s why it’s become easier for me to just stare at them blankly and not respond, or not even look at them at all. By acknowledging haranguers it would be saying that they’re more important than they actually are. I’d be giving them way more credit than they deserve. In truth they’re no more important than a fly that’s buzzing around your head. We’ve all experienced a fly buzzing around in our vicinity. You swat it away and keep going. But you don’t get emotionally riled up by it, indignant, offended and furious. If you did that would be insane. Same principle applies here.
Another reason I’ve gotten so riled up by these types in the past is because let’s face it…..they’re not flies. They’re people. (supposedly.) So therefore they should know better and be better….right?? It makes sense that a simple fly acts the way it does…but not a supposedly sophisticated human…..right??? So I’d be thinking to myself, pissed off, “ I don’t go around acting like that!!! Seriously, who does that shit?!?!” They look like a normal person on the outside, same as me, which implies that their brains should therefore be wired the same as mine, and that they should have the same understanding of social behavior that I do!!
X! Doesn’t work that way. It’s one thing to intellectually understand this mindset, but it’s another thing entirely to know it, and begin to put it into action at all times. Whoever, whatever these people are, they don’t matter, so just step over them and be on your way. It certainly is amusing though that they think they matter. !!
I just nodded vaguely with the attitude of “Cool story bro, don’t care…” just trying to get out of there….and that’s where he snapped into a more dark, stern look and commanded me – yes, literally commanded me – “Look over there!…..take a picture of that!…..” pointing at something in the near distance, while frowning. Demanding me to start showing him what my camera can do.
Again…..I was now vigilant to things by this point so I IMMEDIATELY shut him down. Don’t remember the specifics, only that I snapped back at him in a quiet, but forceful way, putting him in his place. And then left. He just stood there like “!!” surprised, not expecting that. I was still riled up about it when I got home, relaying the story to Tom. But this incident in particular had a bad feel to it, more than any other, because of the look in this guy’s face. I don’t know what he was trying to pull, how far he would have tried to take things had I just been some dumb, naive chick. But luckily I’m not that. :/ Even back at the beginning of this phenomenon, when I was never prepared and getting caught off guard I still wouldn’t have allowed myself to get pulled into anything weird, trust me. The only difference between back then, and when this incident happened, is that my anger and push back/verbal smackdown was now INSTANT.
Randos honing in on me when driving. Another form of honing for me has been how, for years, in multiple states, I’ve had waaaay too many instances of driving past somebody standing or walking along the side of the road who turns and just hones in on me as my car passes them. Staring in the eyes sort of honing. Even though there are other cars on the road, they zero in on me and clock me closely as I drive past like it’s personal. It’s always eerie. Not only that, but to top it off many times the person who hones in on me will also start calling out towards me saying who knows what, further adding to the weirdness. They were silent and not looking at anything in particular……until I drive by them. Then suddenly they’re looking right at me and yelling stuff out at me. Tom’s witnessed this a couple of times when riding passenger in my car. It’s really weird, and if I’m not traveling fast then it’s even more awkward, because there’s more time for them to stare and yell.
In most, if not all these instances the people involved appear down on their luck, dressed shabby and are either walking slowly, loafing about aimlessly or sitting at a bus stop. In other words, probably homeless. I tend to think that those who are homeless show a greater ability for “stuff” to work through them, due to being more unstable in many instances, whether because of mental illness and/or drug and alcohol abuse. So it may not be the person themselves who’s suddenly compelled to turn and stare intently at me (and yell at) out of everybody in the vicinity, so much as it’s some other force working through them, since they’re a vulnerable pawn/vector. But this is yet another one of those sorts of things that gangstalking proponents try to make sense of through the limited lens of some “knowingly in on it, physical-based syndicate of harassers.” However I don’t for one second believe that any of those people who did this in my case knew why they even did it, or were in complete control of themselves.
And on an interesting sidenote, now that I’ve had a dual dash cam system installed in my car for the past few years, recording everything………this particular phenomenon seems to have ceased, as far as I can tell. It’s funny because it was one of the first things I was hoping to catch on video when I had the camera system installed. Like, “ooooohhh! Now I can get evidence of all those randos on the sidewalks and at the bus stops honing in on me and yelling at me like they know me!!” But now that I’m ready and looking for it, able to capture evidence of them doing their thing….it never seems to happen anymore. ;) Of course. I still pass by pedestrians all the time, because again, this is mega urban south Florida. But they all behave themselves now.
Our apartment getting honed in on for solicitors/religious people and wrong doorbell ringing. We’ve lived in Boca now for 11 years, in two different apartments within the same building. (Same floor even.) So this phenomenon first started with a vengeance way back when we were in the first apartment down the hall. It seemed like we were constantly dealing with so-called religious people ringing our doorbell, or just solicitors in general ringing our bell. Or even “lost” people. But the key point, and what made it something verifiably suspicious, was how as far as I could tell these people were NOT ringing the doorbells of our neighbors. Only us. :/ Because you can hear if a neighbor’s doorbell is ringing, including the ones downstairs, since it’s so loud. And the reason it pissed me off to no end was because Tom has an upside down schedule, sleeping until the afternoon while working and being up at night. And he’s struggled with sleep issues for as long as I’ve known him, going back years before we even met. It’s been a regular part of his life since forever. So these people ringing the doorbell in the mornings when they have no reason to, and potentially waking Tom up and disrupting his sleep (which usually leads to him not being able to fall back asleep again, and thus completely screwing up his energy and brain function for the rest of the day), would just set-me-TF OFF. O.o I realized when I’ve looked at this closer and pondered on it all that if I lived alone I wouldn’t have given a shit, or even NOTICED that this was some sort of “woo” phenomenon. But because I was feeling protective of Tom I noticed. And reality noticed I noticed. :/
There were times I’d fling open the door and find out it’s some solicitor, or even stupider, some idiot ringing the wrong bell looking for somebody else’s apartment, despite each apartment CLEARLY having numbers on them. :/ Then I’d have to quietly demand they leave, stop bothering us, there’s somebody sleeping in here, etc. What would make it worse is that sometimes they wouldn’t just leave. They’d try to engage me in conversation anyway, trying to get me to help them figure out where they’re supposed to go instead. So it was bringing out my absolute WORST lowest base self, which I hated. Other times I wouldn’t answer at all and just hover next to the window, watching them through the partially opened blinds.
The phenomenon continued even after we moved to an upgraded apartment down the hall, which showed me that it wasn’t a case of solicitors/religious zealots thinking our apartment was the one to go to maybe because of some previous tenant who’d lived there before us, whom they maybe had established a connection with or something. No. It was something about us. Because the phenomenon had now followed us to the new apartment. We were being honed in on. And again, I could clearly hear that our other neighbors’ doorbells were not being rung, and I would watch through our blinds as these solicitors would walk away after I didn’t answer the door….and NOT ring the next door neighbor’s bell.
I got so fed up with how often this was happening I decided to confront it one morning in a different type of way when yet more solicitors were ringing our bell. I was convinced we were being singled out, and I was going to get proof of that, and then use that proof as my weapon. Make them answer for what TF they were doing. So I waited until the two solicitor guys walked away after I didn’t answer the door, then I quietly exited our apartment and watched what they did after they left. Would they ring other people’s doorbells?
Nope. I stood in our doorway area and watched them slooowwwly amble their way down the outside hall like they had no better place to be in the moment, zero real purpose, and DIDN’T ring a single other doorbell along the way. Then watched them stop and linger for a minute or so at the end of the hall, looking at some paperwork and talking amongst themselves. Then they proceed down the stairs. Feeling VERY pissed off I chased them down. Caught up to the two guys when they were at the bottom of the stairs and immediately laid into them, demanding to know why they were ringing our bell?!? And ONLY our bell?!? It was two clean cut looking black guys from the Caribbean I took it, based on the one guy’s accent, wearing polo type shirts and khaki pants, with short, neatly cut hair. Only one of the guys spoke to me, looking frowny and dazed/confused, the other remained silent. The one who spoke explained something about how they were out there for their church or something. I continued to lay into them, ranting stuff like, I watched you after you left!! You didn’t ring anybody else’s doorbells!! You only rang ours!! I WATCHED you!! I stood there and WATCHED you walk all the way down the hall and you didn’t ring a single other doorbell!!! (he did look slightly surprised when I yelled at him about how I had been watching them…..) And I want to know WHY! WHY are you honing in on us?? (I used that specific word, honing, to make my point.) Just on an on, demanding in a quietly angry way that he needs to EXPLAIN why he’s honing in on only us, and how his church story doesn’t add up. I didn’t give a shit either that I may come off as crazy. This phenomenon was crazy.
He couldn’t explain it though. He could only just stand there looking dazed and frowny and intellectually dim, barely answering. Like not even a real person. I don’t even think the other guy could speak English, that was my impression about why he was just quiet and blank. For guys that are claiming to be out there stumping for their church I don’t know how they expected to accomplish that when one didn’t even seem to be able to speak English, and the other seemed unable to even articulate himself in any way. And not only that, but when they only focus on one apartment in an entire building of twenty apartments. Yeah…that makes sense. :/ But I commanded them, Don’t EVER hone in on us and ring our doorbell again!!
And you know what…..that specific aspect of the phenomenon stopped. No more so-called religious church people from ANY church singling out only our apartment to bother when Tom’s trying to sleep. Interesting.
Was it some sort of gangstalking thing? I actually don’t think so. But it was SOMETHING, that’s for sure. We’d lived there enough years, in two different apartments, to have seen the undeniable pattern. And what’s also interesting is that in all the years we’ve lived here, and in all the times I’ve walked around our complex to get out and get some sun, go read in the courtyard, etc. whether on the weekends or during the week, whether morning, midday, afternoon or early evening, I have never, ever, ever, ever once seen religious people or sales solicitors roaming about the complex, walking up and down the halls, ringin’ bells and knockin’ on doors. Never once. Yet both of our apartments kept being on the receiving end of this thing for YEARS, until I lost my shit one day at two of them.
We experienced another incident of our apartment being honed in on in a different, and VERY nefarious way that should also probably be mentioned here. The absolute worst incident of all in terms of it being a true threat. This time late at night at 11:30 p.m., in May of 2021, when both Tom and I were wide awake and up and about. Instead of rehashing it here I’ll let the dedicated Gab post I did about it do the talking. The guy who rang our bell, pretending to be in a panic with his fake story and “injuries” and demanding we let him to help/save him, like this was the Three Little Pigs, was CLEARLY up to no good, and I can’t even imagine what he would have done to anybody who was stupid or naive to let him in. O.o
The nasty sarcastic “You’re WELCOME!!!” phenomenon….when the bully haranguer hasn’t done anything to be thanked for. This one……oh boy. It’s another form of being “honed in on in public” by total strangers, which I did a dedicated Gab post about, because THAT’S how whack it’s been. (In one instance that I talk about in that Gab post, a nasty old witch yelled out “You’re WELCOME!!” to me…because she was in MY way at the grocery store, causing me to have to skirt around HER, in order to get over to Tom. But for some reason I was being reprimanded to feel like I owed HER a thank you…..for her being in the way! But that gives readers the idea of just how ridiculous this phenomenon has gotten for me.) It’s very specific to me, and probably not something that anybody reading this has experienced, but I’m going to include it as one of the endless litany of peripheral “woo”/targeting I’ve experienced in life that can seem like organized, 3rd density harassment, but actually isn’t.
As noted in the above linked Gab post, I’ve always been the person in life profusely thanking everybody around me for every stupid thing and apologizing for shit I had nothing to do with, which is what makes this phenomenon absolutely ABSURD. I’m the absolute last person who needs to be taught some lesson about being grateful and saying thank you. :/ But then again, it’s NEVER nice people who do this to me. Only very nasty, hate filled people, and where it’s clearly a “bully honing” thing. The two part Gab post (it continues in the attached comment, with multiple real life anecdotes, like this article) sums up the entire phenomenon, including my theory about why it’s happening to me. So I’ll just let readers read the post if interested, versus rehashing it all here.
The Flip Side of the Honing Phenomenon….
Interestingly enough the whole “honing” thing has also happened in a cute and positive way, involving kids and animals. So I want to leave off by going out of order and ending things with the positive counterbalance. It hasn’t all been negative, so to be fair let’s look at the nice aspect of the phenomenon.
There have definitely been times when animals have also honed in on me, sometimes to where they too are acting like they don’t even see the other people around me. I don’t mind when it involves animals. I love it when animals notice me. It’s just people I have the issue with. ;D A great example that happened years ago back in Charlottesville involved a cute, friendly little black and white female outdoor kitty named Ellie that Tom and I befriended when we’d go for walks. (I learned her name was Ellie when talking to her owner one time. Ellie was a nickname for Eleanor Rigby, after the Beatles song, as she told us.)
One winter afternoon Tom and I were going for a walk after recently befriending Ellie, and we found ourselves on her street. (I always make friends with any friendly/sociable outdoor cats that I find myself periodically running into. As long as they’ve been socialized it’s like I become instant best buds with them.) Ellie was out and about, and spotted us from atop a flight of stairs on a house that was across the street from her owner’s, and just honed right in on us, so super excited. meow! meow! meow! meow! meow! meow! meow! meow! meow! Running down the stairs and into the street to greet us, rubbing on us, meowing some more, acting like we all went way back for years. It was super cute. And meanwhile…….she never even acknowledged the two other seemingly nice people who happened to also be out for a walk, behind us further down the street. They didn’t seem to exist to her. I even made sure to turn around and watch Ellie out of curiosity after we were leaving, to see what she did when she walked past the other people. As she passed by them she never even so much as looked at them. I joked to Tom “It’s like they’re not even there.” He joked back deadpan, “Maybe they’re not.” O.o
This phenomenon has happened with other animals as well, including birds who have honed in on me the second I would sit down at an outside patio table at our local Einstein’s bagels here in Boca, acting like they knew me personally, like there’s excited recognition. Meanwhile there were other people at neighboring tables whom they didn’t even acknowledge most times. So that’s what makes this something worth noting, because I realize some people reading this may think that the birds have learned that people will feed them, so they’re reacting friendly to any person that’s around. But that wasn’t the case, as I clearly saw. It was like the other people didn’t exist to these birds. Could all just be coincidence and lucky timing. Or, maybe not. It’s hard to know.
And it’s happened with dogs too, especially when I’ve been at the beach. In those instances there have been various people around in the vicinity of the dogs in question, but I’m the one they come running over to, like they know me. They don’t even see the other people. I always say hi or maybe give them a little pat on the head or something. :) Or when out for a walk, if somebody with a dog walks by the dogs will often strain at their leashes, trying to get over to me. (in a positive way, like they know/recognize me, not an attack way.) I even did a dedicated Gab post one time to my unusual dog encounters over the years, including the way I’ve been honed in on by them in a good way. In one more recent example when Tom and I were walking in the El Rio multi use trail here in Boca, a dog full on got down onto the paved trail in a subservient, but happy way when we passed by him, smiling with his tongue hanging out, gazing up at us. His owner was amazed, like, What the….?? wondering in a joking way if he knew us or something. What makes it unusual is that as an adult I’ve never even owned a dog. Only a cat. Which is why I gravitate to all the friendly outdoor cats. I know cats. So I’m not somebody with a lot of dog experience. So I find it interesting that dogs will bypass people who do have dog experience, sometimes even forgetting about their actual owners, in lieu of me instead. There’s one anecdote in that Gab post that’s just next level, involving the two little dogs that belonged to a former coworker named Karen, and how they went wild and became absolutely DESPERATE to get out of her arms and get into mine the second they saw me. To the point of flinging themselves into the air between us, so I had to jump forward a little to help catch them, all of which just shocked the hell out of Karen. She’d never experienced her dogs acting like that before with anybody, and admitted to being a little insulted and jealous about it actually. “I thought they loved me the most.” ;D
And it’s even happened with insects. And fish. Life forms that have completely different existences and “realms” than we do, making it very odd that we could even connect at all. But one notable example worth mentioning was the damselfly incident, when I was returning home from work, and which Tom and I commemorated with a photo. The full explanation is included in the photo description. But this damselfly acted like it KNEW me, and it was personal….but in a good way. It was adorable. As noted in that pic description damselflies and dragonflies are intelligent and curious, so it makes sense in a lot of ways why that happened. I’ve had other insects just full on come over to me and plop down next to me, side by side (including things with wings that normally fly around) just……..to hang out. “You seem friendly, I like your vibe, let’s hang.” O.o Yeah, to THAT level, where it’s undeniable what’s going on here. Especially when it’s a flying insect deciding to take a break from flying and landing next to me. In those multiple instances I could feel the vibe of the insects in question and it was calm/chill, friendly, even sweet and innocent. Meanwhile the fish incidents have taken place at Gumbo Limbo Environmental Center here in Boca Raton, where I’ve gotten pics, and vids, showing this phenomenon in action. A good pic that illustrates this is posted on my Flickr, along with the corresponding description. I also have vids in my Gumbo Limbo video compilation posted on YouTube that show this.
And as far as kids go, the most notable incident involving being honed in on happened in 2016, at Butterfly World here in south Florida. Butterfly World always has a lot of people there, so the day this happened was no exception. I was just milling about one of the butterfly gardens, looking for good photo ops, and admittedly feeling cranky about how many people were around ;) when out of nowhere this little boy honed in on me out of everybody else in the vicinity. Came over to me like he knew me, wanting to show me the butterfly he had clinging to his fingers. I smiled and gave him a positive response. His demeanor was serious and mature, and kind of monotone, not like a smiley excited, loud and hyper kid or anything. I learned from his dad that his name was Billy, and he was 4.
But this began our whole interaction, where he would run back, get some other butterfly to be on his hands/fingers, and come back over to show me and talk about it in his serious, mature manner. At one point he even hugged onto one of my legs as he talked, acting like we’d known each other forever. His dad was kind of blown away by this behavior, especially the hugging, saying that he’d NEVER seen him act like this with a stranger before. This isn’t his normal behavior, he’s not a touchy feely kid. Even began apologizing for it, worried that Billy was bothering me. I was flattered and told him not to worry about it, it’s cool. I even joked that Billy was the Butterfly Whisperer, for his ability to get all the butterflies to just…be on him like that. I’d never seen anything like that before. They were just completely calm and docile with him, letting him gently handle them like they knew him. It was wild. And meanwhile he was acting like he knew me. I have a picture commemorating this that I posted on Flickr.
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There’s multiple possibilities that could be happening with all the above examples of crazy bad timing, being repeatedly blocked, space encroaching and converging, needy annoying people honing in, bully haranguers, and even the positive honing involving kids and animals, all of which needs to be detangled. So let’s review. And keep in mind that sometimes it’s several of these explanations rolled together.
1. Being out of the flow / Unable to gel with the collective vibe? I’m starting out with a theory that I actually think is the least likely, but still a possibility. Though I’m not the only one who’s considered it, which is why it should be mentioned. ‘Cause you never know. But this involves the idea of being “out of synch” with reality in general. Something I’ve wondered on those days when I’ve found myself getting repeatedly blocked at every turn is that maybe if I was in the right timing/correct flow of things then this wouldn’t be happening? Because let’s be real….most of the time I’m not experiencing all that overt blocking and hindering. So possibly on those particular days when I do means that something about my timing is out of synch with the realm I’m occupying? I’ve had the thought a few times that maybe if I just “stepped aside” and waited things out for a few minutes then all this blocking and intersecting weirdness and whatnot would stop, and I’d be “synched back up” properly or something and able to flow along again as normal.
What could cause one to suddenly be “out of synch” with the world around them, if indeed this idea has validity? One possibility, suggested to me by a male reader of my website years ago, involves the idea of “something” placing a frequency bubble/envelope around us that’s now de-synching us from the rest of our realm you could say. Thought that was an interesting idea. It may not be a bubble/envelope as he described it or understood it, but maybe more like something just having that ability to alter our frequency to change/de-synch us.
Another possibility could involve a geographical area being incompatible with somebody’s vibes. So rather than something external artificially changing our frequency or de-synching us, it’s happening on its own. The idea of being the minority, in a majority collective vibe that’s dominating/overpowering. Something I hadn’t realized until Tom pointed it out to me years ago is that the repeated blocking/hindering and strange space-time intersecting weirdness (and the bully honing thing as well I now realize) increased after we moved back to Florida. I was like “duh!….of course…” Back in Cville I was dealing mostly with the needy honing, and then strange putt-putt drivers blocking me. Not much else really. Then….we moved back to south Florida. O.o Despite the beautiful looking tropical scenery and nice landscaping in many parts it’s a VERY intense area, vibe-wise, due mainly to the fact that between northern Palm Beach County to southern Miami-Dade County, a span of about 80 miles, you’re looking at well over 6 million people….that have actually been documented, not even counting all the illegals…..crammed into a narrow strip of land at the bottom of a peninsula. It’s one of the most famous, sought out areas in the entire U.S., and even the world, which is why everybody and their uncle flock here, and all the illegal Caribbeans land here in their boats and rafts. (that truly is a thing, btw. Got to work once and a coworker was laughing and shaking her head about a boatload of illegals that had just come ashore in Pompano Beach, where we worked, and were running amok through the streets near the beach, which she’d directly seen, while the cops and Coast Guard were trying in vain to go after them. This happens a lot from Broward down to Miami. Had a coworker in Fort Lauderdale witness another illegal raft landing, where the immigrants all immediately scattered in all directions into the streets, including women carrying babies.)
But that’s a LOT of psychic energy being emitted by a LOT of people, and most of it not positive. So once we moved back down here cue the litany of additional aggravating strangeness that I’ve been subjected to on the regular, and the idea of vibe incompatibility may be a contributing factor.
Tom had a great analogy to describe this when we were discussing the subject. He said it’s like a flat sheet with something creating a crater/depression in the middle, with the force of gravity that pulls things down into it. But even if you’re normally doing your best to float two inches above everything you’re still going to find yourself dipping down into the crater. Only, you’ll be two inches above the bottom. It’s very difficult to raise yourself up so high that you can fly completely over that crater depression with its strong gravity sucking you in. If you could then you probably wouldn’t even remain in this realm at all. !
This kind of ties into the whole traffic light timing phenomenon. People reading this have probably heard about or noticed for themselves the idea of traffic lights being an indicator of things. Might sound odd to some, but I first noticed it years ago in the ’90s while commuting to work in the morning in SoCal, and it continued in other states as well over the years: Mornings with consistent green lights and a smooth flow of traffic in general, versus those days when it seemed it was nothing but red lights and constant obstacles and braking and other nutty drivers. It seemed to me that there was a pattern. And on those mornings when the lights were all green, and I was able to travel unimpeded, then my day at work also correlated with the same easy-breezy feeling. (Keeping in mind I’m talking about commuting in urban areas with a lot of people and a LOT of potential traffic. Not rural areas with sparse populations.) Things at work would end up being smooth, people were in a good mood, everything flowed well.
But on those days when it was nothing but red lights….watch out. In multiple cases it correlated with me basically about to walk into a shit storm at my job, for lack of a better way to put it. An indicator that everybody around me is going to be aggro, from the people calling in on the phones to whoever walks in off the street, to my fellow coworkers and bosses; computers, phones, copiers. etc. might be malfunctioning, or key software programs that I need in order to do my job will be down; and in general lots of wrenches are going to be tossed around into everybody’s works, where plans and meetings don’t work out, and so on. And despite my own best efforts to remain leveled I’m going to have a hell of a time fending it off, and will probably succumb to it on some level.
Some days we hit almost no red lights at all in our travels. Other days though that’s all life seems to be……….one giant red light. Interestingly enough though, by this point in 2023, I’m not noticing this same pattern when commuting to my current job in Boca Raton, FL, which is a positive situation. I’ve had repeated “red light days” on my way to my current job…..but where my work day wound up being fine, as far as I could tell. But back in the day there was definitely this noticeable pattern, which included Virginia as well, not just SoCal. Maybe something changed between then and now, with me specifically. Maybe my current vibe is now able to override it all or something, I don’t know.
But back in the day when this vibe inconsistency happened it was typically on Monday mornings. So I may have been in a mellow and pleasant mood despite it being a Monday, having gotten up early after getting enough sleep, and getting all the things done that I like to do in the morning, being calm, organized and on the ball…… but that doesn’t mean it’s the case for the general collective. Most people seem to hate Mondays for obvious reasons. They’re probably tired, stressed, running late, totally not mentally prepared, and hating their job and life, and in general operating in an extreme opposite frequency to how I may be. The majority collective is aggravated and off kilter……which maybe therefore manifests in reality for everybody. No matter what your positive state may be. Since I’m completely surrounded by their vibes, in the middle of it all and in the minority, then maybe the collective is going to therefore dominate and win out, unfortunately. I’m just a visitor traveling through their dominant realm. Not the other way around. And one way in which this off kilter-ness with the general collective and its subsequent realm domination may manifest is through the traffic lights that we get hit with. Among other ways.
If this really is the case though then it goes to show the power of the human mind. Tens of thousands of people in urban areas pumping out stress and annoyance, being so powerful that it might even be altering physical reality. And they have no idea. And on those days when people are calmer, reality settles down accordingly.
Related closely to this idea would be….
2. Finding oneself somewhere that reality wasn’t expecting / “Going Off Script.” Looking back on the anecdote where I mentioned leaving work early suddenly at the last second, and how I soon found myself blocked at every turn just trying to get home, when I normally would not be on the road at that time – Maybe it was just a giant coincidence, and the two have no correlation, but it did make me wonder whether reality was unable to accommodate my presence or something. I wasn’t where I was “supposed” to be. O.o And hence, all the blocking. This ties into the previous theory, but goes a step further. This idea implies that there is some actual, literal, “ALL SEEING CONTROLLING FORCE” happening here that’s governing things, like some sort of hyperdimensional “air traffic control.” Which then implies….a very much non organic reality. A program of some sort. Which is a WHOLE other subject in itself.
But this theory ties into something seemingly separate that I noted in my article about Synchronicities. It was in category #3 on the list, the anecdote concerning the crab sighting when Tom and I were out for a walk. What was noted about that synchronicity alignment was that it happened when we were doing something unexpected at the last minute. Normally we would not have been going for a walk right then, but on that afternoon we spontaneously were, for reasons explained in that write up……and then experienced some unexpected synch weirdness possibly as a direct result of that.
Another really good synch example from the same write up is the one entitled “Hawks, Eagles and Falcons.” The entire reason that unbelievable, multi-layered synch was even able to happen was exactly because we were doing back to back unplanned things in that moment.
And there was yet another instance in life that hasn’t been documented on my website when Tom and I “veered off last minute” to do something really unexpected, and then experienced some really strange happenings as a result. We found ourselves at a pizza joint we’ve never been to, as part of the rando, spontaneous weirdness we were engaging in that night. And right when we were leaving, to continue our “night of rando weirdness” and were passing by the front registers, a large light fixture mounted to the ceiling suddenly “exploded” and shattered/crashed down everywhere. O.o Tom noted that one of the cashiers was staring at us with both shock and almost fear/blame, like she connected our presence passing by at that exact moment to the exploding light fixture.
So there have been other ways Tom and I have both seen that doing sudden, unpredictable “going off script” kinds of activities can sometimes result in high strangeness. There’s an entire activity/hobby devoted to this concept, complete with a downloadable app. It’s called “Randonauting.” Randonauts use an app called “Randonautica” that generates random points in their region for them to go to, based on criteria I can’t even begin to try to explain here. (I understand the explanation..…but it’s complex and irrelevant for this.) And as many proponents of the activity have attested…… some weee-irrrrrrrd things can happen when people suddenly ‘go off script,’ deviating from their daily predictable lives and show up to these randomly generated points. O.o Funny enough when I’ve tried actual purposeful, planned Randonauting with the app, where you’re directed to specific points, not a single odd thing has ever happened. Tried it with Tom too, but nothing. I gave up on it because it was boring and pointless in my experience. But when Tom and I have spontaneously done unexpected things on our own, before even knowing about the related activity of Randonauting…..really weird things have happened.
The idea of reality not being prepared in some way, and/or “not being able to accommodate” one’s unexpected deviation from the predicted norm isn’t far fetched I’ve come to realize, considering several anecdotes I noted in my Conspiracies in the Workplace article. It’s the section entitled “Patterns in the Chaos, and Seeing Behind the Curtain,” where I detail what happened to me on several occasions after I said sudden, unexpected Truther/“conspiracy” stuff to mainstream normie coworkers. I watched how in two separate instances, years apart at two completely unrelated jobs, my coworkers were “shut down,” all simultaneously going on some sort of synchronized “pause mode,” as if to prevent them from hearing the “NO NO WORDS!” that I guess had been flagged by the reality censors. O.o So readers can just click on that link and skip ahead towards the end to that section to read the full details, if interested. What was also noteworthy about the second incident in question, and which proves the validity of this theory to me anyway, was the way in which I was immediately hit with a very loud “reprimanding” feeling of sorts by……“something else” after I said my unexpected off the script comment. As I wrote:
“As I watched this happen there was this whole sort of finger wagging, reprimanding feeling overcoming me that “YOU’RE NOT SUPPOSED TO SAY THINGS LIKE THAT!” The best way to describe what was being conveyed to me was a feeling of “disrupting the Matrix.” Like there’s some sort of control in place that has it all on lockdown, and most everything is running on a script and/or is highly controlled, and “it”/“they” know what to anticipate. Because now it has to scramble to cover up what you just unexpectedly said or did, keep things flowing along as “normal” and “predictable.” So it was a feeling that I was causing unexpected disruption that needed to be handled. I was being “A WRENCH IN THE WORKS.”
As noted in that section, this reality is VERY controlled I’ve come to realize, despite how seemingly chaotic it may appear. Considering how many billions of people are supposedly occupying this world it’s any wonder that anything even functions or flows smoothly at all. And yet it does. All day every day around the world. It’s a bit of a miracle. But as I’ve come to realize….not really. It’s because this place is definitely on lock down, and there are some seriously high level stuff at work everywhere all the time to keep things running as smoothly as they do.
So maybe those moments of repeated blocking/obstacles that border on absurdity when just trying to get from Point A to B at unexpected/unplanned times, as well as strange reality happenings affiliated with either Randonauting or physically veering off last minute to unexpected places, and even people being shut down/put on pause mode when I’ve said unexpected Truther/conspiracy things are all just aspects of the same related phenomenon: Our non-organic, highly controlled “Matrix” reality being unable to accommodate what somebody is doing or saying in that moment.
3. Future events spilling back in the timeline? Another possibility for repeated blocking, space encroaching and all around bad timing is that it’s an indication of other strangeness is in the works, or which is already in the process of happening, even if I’m not yet aware of it. Kind of like foreshadowing indicators of something that’s brewing. I’ve discussed other metaphysical indicators that foreshadow impending events and timeline changes all around my website, from ear tones to synchronicities, number sightings and deja vus. So maybe this is just another variation of it, taking the form of a negative impediment, which in itself could be a symbolic representation of the event to come.
When I looked back through my old log book during the twelve days prior to the night of 12/20/13, when there was continued blocking when Tom and I were out and about, mentioned at the beginning, I had five ear tones – a noticeable increase – multiple number sightings, and weird synchronicities to boot. One of which involved the astronomical timing of running into a former coworker at Whole Foods that I once worked with. There was a LOT of “woo” surrounding this coworker, WAY too much to sidetrack into here, but just know there was an established history of high level woo with this chick, of which included the astronomically impossible real life connection between her and a random reader of my website who doesn’t even live in Florida. Among multiple other “woo” things. It was like nothing that’s ever happened before or since with any coworker. And meanwhile she just so happened to be standing around in the same aisle I was there for. There was only one thing I was looking for (raw honey), and it was the same aisle she was in. Standing there, looking at honey. The timing was improbable because Tom and I visited two other places before getting to Whole Foods. So it’s not even just that we crossed paths in the same aisle at the same time due to impossible timing, but who the person was that this involved.
So when looking at the “continued blocking” that went on the night of Friday 12/20/13, all the recent phenomenon needed to get taken into consideration, looking at the bigger picture, versus treating everything as separate. The night of constant blocking was just one more aspect of the ongoing weirdness during that period of time. This is another reason why I’ve advised people to log their stuff (though do so in an emotionally neutral manner, versus freaking out or obsessing….) in order to be able to step back and see any possible bigger picture patterns like this.
4. Magnetic resonance, aka, A wonky form of “the Law of Attraction.” When it comes to the absurd and impossible timing of continually running into somebody, or someones that we don’t want to run into, like the examples concerning my annoying neighbors mentioned earlier, there is absolutely some force at work that can’t even be denied. Those anecdotes proved that. One theory involves some wonky form of the law of attraction being at play, and magnetic resonance. And this item should technically be at the top of the list if I was going to order these potential explanations from most likely to least likely, because this explantation single handedly accounts for most of the things I talk about in this write up. And it’s one of the most important points that many proponents of so-called gangstalking, uploading their videos (that often show nothing), could benefit from learning about. What they mistakenly believe is deliberate targeting by an organized group of people that are all knowingly “IN ON IT!” and positioned pre-emptively, anywhere they could go, doing and saying things that yeah, can seem odd, may in fact just be this explanation.
But the more I feel or have felt like I do NOT want to have to see or deal with somebody, or the more pissed off that certain type of life happenings make me……the more those things now happen. Guaranteed. What proved it was the way in which this phenomenon differs between Tom and I, who live together, with intertwined realities, and who have the same potential to experience the same level of everything, from annoying neighbor run-ins, to repeatedly being blocked/impeded in a variety of ways, to bully harassment from total strangers in public, including the nasty “You’re WELCOME!” phenomenon, etc. you name it. And yet……we don’t.
As much as I originally hated to admit this years ago when Tom first pointed it out ;) I realize now that Yeah, he was right. Things are repeatedly happening to me to the point of harassment even, but are not happening to him. Why? Because he couldn’t give a shit. That’s why. The magnetic resonance isn’t there. Skip the “Demented Papa Smurf” as Tom even nicknamed him was one of the rare times that something that bothered me to a high level also bothered him. So guess what…..both of us kept getting Skip’d at every turn, since it was such a problem for both of us on a deeper level. Tom however is indifferent to the neighbor chick that repulses me, just like “eh” shoulder shrug. So the phenomenon isn’t happening to him. Only me. Same as putt-putt drivers, who in theory could cut him off but then go only 9 mph in a 30 mph zone. They don’t bother him. Same as anybody who could create a block/impediment in any way when he’s out and about, trying to get from Point A to Point B. He doesn’t care. Barely even registers on his radar. Same as half the shit that pisses me off. He barely notices.
He’s also never repeatedly put himself into self-imposed situations that I have where I’m like “I NEED TO DO SOMETHING RIGHT NOW!!” like when it’s time to leave the beach to bike home by a certain time. So there’s no “opening” there for him either. And the idea of people repeatedly going up to him, imploring him for help also wouldn’t register on his radar. He’s laid back and would just roll with it every time. (and he has had people honing in on him in public for help/assistance, in a nice way. So that does happen to him too, absolutely. And for a good reason that we’ll be touching on shortly. Though he doesn’t mind.) Even the wrong doorbell ringing/harassment when Tom’s trying to sleep doesn’t irritate him to the level it does me. I’m the one getting all pissed off on HIS behalf. And if I hadn’t had that reaction then I’m convinced it probably wouldn’t have happened.
Tom’s the epitome of patience, very laid back, and overall is a more accepting person, while also lacking neurotic tendencies. Then…..there’s me. The epitome of impatience, way more intolerant and anti-social/“Get TF out of my space, people!” and easily annoyed by a lot of things. And with already existing sore spots/trigger points about people being disrespectful, stupid, narcissistic/entitled, oblivious/lack of self awareness, impositional/boundary crossing and outright bullying/haranguing, due to both the way I was raised growing up, as well as a lifetime of negative events that have built up. Things that guess what……didn’t happen to Tom growing up or with the way he was raised. So guess what…..they currently don’t happen to Tom. ;)
To say I have a low threshold of tolerance is putting it mildly. O.o Growing up I wasn’t allowed to develop into somebody who does the sorts of things that so many of the lower level, oblivious, and outright stupid people surrounding me regularly do. (Super strict, HIGHLY controlled upbringing to mold me into a perfectly performing robot computer as a small child, as I’ve always described it. I needed to be the smartest and perform at levels above my actual grade level, mistakes for ANYTHING were not acceptable, things were punitive and psychologically and verbally abusive, and I was expected to navigate the world as a fully formed, perfectly behaving 40 year old as a young child.) That behavioral training/conditioning carried over into adulthood. (So if anybody’s curious, yeah, I’m an Enneagram 1 wing 2. Tom insisted on having me test myself with the Enneagram personality test thing. Enneagram 1’s who are not functioning in an ideal healthy way are everything I’ve described of myself here in terms of their bad traits. !!) So I don’t understand the ridiculous behavior I’m often witnessing around me by the average person out in the world, because it’s not how I am, nor was it how I was ever ALLOWED to be growing up, and therefore I can’t deal with it. So it’s like reality is needling me at every turn with it. The phenomena has proven itself to be very selective and pointed, and indicates that there are strange forces at work in this reality, most of which is being governed by our own consciousnesses.
Since I’ve been so focused on the fact that the neighbor chick irritates me, and I don’t want to have to see or hear her any more than I have to, things started pulling us together like a magnet at every turn. I was being “pinged” to open the door right when she’s there, or being “pinged” to think NOW was the moment I need to check to see if the laundry room is open, right as she’s coming down the hall towards me, or “pinged” to decide NOW is the moment I’m going to head out to run my errands…..at the same exact moment she is. It’s literally a psychic force at work beyond my control. In the same way one can experience when it comes to the number sightings phenomenon I also write about on my website, where we’re repeatedly drawn to look at the clock at certain times, or to look over at a license plate of a passing/neighboring car in traffic that contains meaningful numbers or words, and so on. It’s some sort of force at work to nudge our responses, beyond our conscious control.
What the law of attraction doesn’t understand, and this is something that Tom and I talked about in our recent 8 part podcast series, is the “NO” part of a thought/wish/statement. It only hears the rest of what you’re thinking.
Interestingly enough, animal communication functions the same way, something I read years ago in the book “Animal Talk” by Penelope Smith, but had already experienced firsthand with my cat Kitty when she was still alive, proving it. But if you’re thinking you don’t want your pet to do something (or any critter you’re trying to communicate with) they’re not going to get the “NO” part. They only hear the rest of what you’re focusing on. And then they’re liable to do the exact thing you don’t want them to do. (As I watched Kitty do one time in the kitchen, in a house I was renting a room in. I had turned the stove burner on to get ready to cook something, and began thinking about how I didn’t want Kitty to go near the hot burner. She was sitting on the other side of the kitchen, minding her own business…..until the second I had that loud thought. I watched as her eyes and face lit up, hearing my thought, as she suddenly ran across the room, jumped up onto the raised barstool seat, then onto the counter, making a beeline straight for the stove top and red hot burner. O.o I had to leap over and grab her to prevent that catastrophe. But that’s how I learned on my own firsthand about how animals hear “NO” thoughts…..they don’t. !! Then had it confirmed in Penelope’s book a few years later.) So if you want critters to not do a certain thing, or not go in a certain area, you have to instead think/focus/put your attention on the alternative that you DO want them to do, or go. So with Kitty I should have had a loud thought about how I wanted her to go do something in another part of the house that was away from the burner.
Meanwhile our consciousness, or rather, subconscious, functions much the same way. So if you don’t want to keep running into somebody? Just be indifferent to them. Don’t think hyper positively about them, which creates a resonance, and don’t think hyper negatively about them either….because that also apparently creates a resonance, as I can definitely verify. I realized I needed to implement this awareness with our neighbor chick, and have been working on it. So for now the phenomenon has (not so coincidentally) died down/backed off. Years ago though I was on the receiving end of the magnetic resonance thing with regards to somebody thinking hyper positively about me, making an improbable (almost kind of impossible, actually…) “path crossing” happen. An ex named Gary was trying to hunt me down back in February of 2000, wanting to reconnect/apologize for some things. And wouldn’t you know it, in a sea of ~5 million people in Orange County, California, where we lived on almost opposite ends of the county that’s almost the size of Rhode Island, we intersected one night right in the middle, at a coffeehouse in Costa Mesa. I was exiting at the same exact moment Gary was entering. In the same doorway at the same time. He made it happen, through a hyper positive magnetic resonance/“Law of Attraction.” I even noted that night that even though I wanted to leave (I was with my brother and my good friend Mike) I felt like I was just kind of being held in place….unable to go. For over an hour past when I wanted to leave. So when we finally “decided” to go (it wasn’t really our decision ;) ) we were doing so when Gary finally arrived on the scene. It was a weird reunion, because Gary had actually met my brother, back when Joe was only 14, 3,000 miles away in Connecticut, and had also met my friend Mike, since I knew the both of them during the same overlap period in ’95. But he hadn’t seen either of them in five years, and hadn’t seen me in four. And now..….there we all were, once again. Now Joe was 19, taller than Gary, and a jail/juvee vet of multiple years. O.o
The same principle also goes for any situation in life that we find exceptionally annoying, and which generates intense emotional responses within us. You’re going to keep drawing the situations/scenarios in so long as they continue to irk you, and you’re not prepared for how to deal with them when they suddenly drop in your lap. It’ll just keep catching you off guard and having its way with you.
The only solution I could come up with for myself, and maybe this will help others with temperaments like mine, is instead of trying to just “not be bothered by people and things that are really obnoxious”…..because that’s often times not enough…….just understand that a wonky form of the law of attraction is at work, and that reality/your subconscious/etc. is messing with you. “Oh….THIS again. Oh okay, um hm……” A matter-of-fact, almost humorous perspective on the matter. That’s all you can really do.
This theory is what I was referring to though at the beginning when I said that I believe there’s more to this phenomenon than even what that guy Aaron had concluded on his targeting blog. Like me, he kept NOTICING the phenomenon, and kept having very adverse reactions to it. But unlike me it got so bad for him that he’s shut himself off from having normal, decent, friendly conversations with people in the world anymore. By his own admittance he behaves like a short, brusque asshole who shuts down any kind of chit chat. Even when he emailed me back in 2013 with his dreamtime theories, mentioned at the beginning, his communication was stipulated with the short, brusque notation that I needn’t email him back. Just wanted to quickly present something in a one sided only exchange, then duck out. Basically, “Don’t talk back. Bye.” O.o But his reasons were/are because he has gotten so easily triggered and sensitive to any synchronous way that anybody or anything can potentially “align” for him in reality that he’s now shutting everybody out as much as possible. Not even friendly conversation with anybody is allowed anymore in his reality…because they’ll most likely say or do something synchronous, and he can’t handle it.
And IMO….that’s EXACTLY why it kept/keeps happening to him, over and over again. Repeated blocking, space-time intersections, and all manner of stuff just always timing itself to be right in front of his face at the exact moment he does anything, as well as a steady stream of synchronous match ups. Some sort of negative magnetic resonance.
But unlike me his experiences went deep into “petty minutiae” territory that would probably sound schizophrenic to mainstream people. Angrily and obsessively noticing the colors of cars and people’s outfits on the streets for instance, because there were patterns to it, and so he believed the colors were reality’s way of trying to convey to him that it’s knowingly f’ing with him in some way to vampirize his energy. Getting enraged if he wakes up and looks out the window and even sees a person directly across the street in his field of view down below on the sidewalk walking by, convinced it’s a fake reality plant because of the perfect timing for them to ALWAYS BE RIGHT THERE, EVERY SINGLE TIME on the sidewalk when he lifts his window shades. (not the same person every time, it’s different people, but apparently there is never NOT a person right there when he opens his shades, no matter when.) And even though I may sound contradictory by saying this, the fact is that Yeah, there really did seem to be these bizarre “color patterns” happening with people’s clothing and cars and such. He had the video clip proof of it. However……IMO, his continual insistence on even seeing/noticing petty minutiae in the first place and insistence on having such agitated responses to it all is what was fueling the fire.
As crazy as my own experiences have been, things never delved down into the petty minutiae territory to the level his experiences did. So that’s where we do differ. Why? Because that’s where I’m more like Tom in that I couldn’t give a shit. If there was a “Sliding Scale of Reactivity” Aaron would be on one far end, Tom would be on the other, and I would be in the middle-ish, slightly over the line towards Tom’s side. I have my specific trigger points, as mentioned above, mainly centered around people’s behavioral problems that impose on me and disrespect me, with secondary issues centering around space encroachment and being blocked/hindered (which ultimately registers as something controlling me and holding me hostage you could say…..) and that’s as far as it goes for me. I couldn’t give a shit what color clothing randos on the street and around me in public are wearing, and there’s no amount of anything that could get me to even start caring. Therefore, those types of issues aren’t happening to me. At least…..that I’m aware. Maybe it is, but again, I’m not even noticing. So if it is then it’s going to waste on me, that’s all I can say. :D And I also don’t get upset, AT all, over reality synchronistically aligning in all other ways, including people around me saying and doing things that match up. I find it intriguing, and as I even noted in my Gangstalking article:
“As anybody who’s read through my website can probably surmise, I’m very much at home with synchronicities and all manner of “woo-woo” reality weirdness and alignment. To me it’s reality “keepin’ it real.” I expect it, that is what’s normal, not the mainstream world, and so I greet it with a casual nod. The day it stops is the day I get gravely concerned. O.o :D “
It’s just a shoulder shrugging, “Yeah, that’s how my life rolls.” And I do take it as a compliment even, because at least it means I’m real, and not some bland NPC background character.
With all that said however, I truly do believe, because I’ve seen enough personal evidence for it, as well as hearing others’ stories/evidence, that some of the more nasty haranguers have forces manipulating them. It’s something I’ve written about not only in the “Gangstalking” article, but other write ups on my site as well, including “The Hidden Puppetmasters.” So it can be a two-fold phenomenon. A sore trigger point in my subconscious draws stuff in like a magnet, which then may include higher neg intelligences operating through empty pawns, taking full advantage of that. And it may not always be “neg entities” as we think we understand them. That’s why I liked Aaron’s conclusion on his blog about a nefarious A.I. level of intelligence being at work in this reality, repeatedly pulling off the impossible. So with that in mind it leads to……
5. Getting bullied by reality. O.o :D Gotta try to have a sense of humor about things I guess. But yes, what seems to be happening in some instances is a form of harassment. Why? Because it can. Because of the nature of what this place is, and also who some souls are in terms of the roles they play here with regards to “poking the beast.” I’ve experienced lifelong harassment in general, for reasons that I outlined in the above linked Gab post about the nasty “You’re WELCOME!” phenomenon. However it doesn’t mean the harassment is being perpetrated entirely by a group of hired human “perp stalkers” sent in by some agency to harass somebody in their everyday life, the way many gangstalking proponents mistakenly believe. While the phenomenon often utilizes people, it’s actually originating from a force/source that’s hyperdimensional in nature.
After 48 years of being in this reality, and with what have sometimes been some…intensive experiences, the way I’ve come to look at things by this point is this: We’re incarnating into (interfacing with?) a highly controlled, and most likely negatively hijacked reality that’s roughly akin to a “virtual reality program” for lack of a better word. It’s not some organically evolved place by any means. And the control aspect can’t be emphasized enough. Too many first hand experiences for me to get into here, but which illustrate just how highly controlled this place really is. Doesn’t mean there isn’t freewill. There is. But to quote the 1999 David Cronenberg movie “eXistenZ,” which is about a virtual reality game…. “There’s just enough to make it interesting.” While there seems to be very high level positive beings overseeing it all, outside of whatever this place is, what’s happening inside is akin to the chickens ruling the roost, or the inmates taking over the asylum. Turning what may have once been a positive place to incarnate and learn/evolve into a Freewill Free-For-All Zone. That’s why there often needs to be protection, and outright intervention, by the higher positive stuff in many instances in order for many souls to even make it through in one piece, due to the proliferation of neg forces running rampant, merely because they can, and because it’s being allowed.
But that’s where “getting bullied by reality” comes into play. Things have been hijacked. Or….maybe it was never good to begin with, but for whatever reason good souls have chosen to come here regardless. Either way it means that the good, real souls who come into this place, but also especially any of them that think they’re going to try to make a positive difference and “poke the beast” can soon find themselves experiencing lifelong interference and harassment/bullying/abuse issues in multiple forms by the “stuff” that ultimately runs this program, manifesting through people and life situations. ‘Cause that’s the kind of stuff you can pull off when this is your domain, and you run the joint. :/
It’s the whole “Agent Smith” phenomenon of manipulating people through a soft form of shadowing, so those people will do and say things on behalf of the negs (or A.I…..) on up to full on piloting/puppeting/possessing them. It’s the ultimate form of nefarious “woo,” and everything that I got into in depth in my “Gangstalking” article, for those who may not have read it. And again, while I do know that true and actual stalking harassment and threats by 3rd density people is a thing, there is also a hyperdimensional/supernatural/metaphysical component to MANY things that are happening to people here, and which sometimes overlaps, but which get mistakenly attributed to strictly physical-based gangstalking by people that are often ascribed superhuman capabilities. And same as Aaron, I’m also onboard with the idea of full on fake inserts, whether it’s people, or entire scenery. I’ve personally experienced enough ‘Glitch in the Matrix’ moments and all around woo-woo in general, as well as having read/heard about enough of other people’s own experiences to know this is happening. It can definitely be part of what this “bullying by reality” thing can involve. A lot of the “people” we see in the world may not be real in the way we think they are. Could be some sort of program insert. (Again, for lack of better terminology.)
So if it seems as if reality has it out for somebody….maybe it does in many instances. Though not every good person experiences the things noted in this write up (or the things noted around my website and in my book), so for the ones who do there are reasons for it. Again, you could be a “beast poker.” There can also be issues with karmic vulnerabilities, and for a variety of reasons, but which is allowing for neg forces to have more access to certain people than others. As well as magnetic resonance issues as mentioned, etc. Sometimes all of the above. !
With regards to the aforementioned “Skip Situation,” after Tom and I had a verbal altercation with him one night and had returned back inside our apartment I decided to do an “Oracle Scrabble.” This is where I focus on a question and then pull some Scrabble tiles out of the pouch and see if they spell out anything. So I asked about Skip, and WTF was going on with this situation with him, and why. The results? Pulled tiles that when rearranged spelled out Devil’s Zoo. (Link to my Gab post where I discuss this. Gab is very glitchy, so the pic I originally attached to the post two years ago is no longer displaying, so I uploaded the corresponding pic to Flickr.)
It’s happening because it CAN happen, because of what this place is. This place is a freewill free-for-all zone, allowing for all manner of good and bad, but especially bad, to run rampant and do their thing. It’s a zoo. One that neg forces are being allowed to dominate. For the moment. So the full explanation of the Skip situation involved a mix of both subconscious wonky “law of attraction” magnetic resonance nonsense, affecting both Tom and I equally since Skip was such a problem for the both of us, along with the fact that we live in “the devil’s zoo,” which allows for those like Skip (and MUCH worse) to exist, and potentially be mixed up with us in our realm. And probably some of that bullying by reality thrown in for kicks, because it has that ability to make the impossible happen. And especially if somebody has a karmic vulnerability, which it seems I have.
6. Personal frequency that beams out like a homing beacon. Years back I was scrolling through an electronic copy of one of Dolores Cannon’s books, “The Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth” and I came across this description of what she believes are the second wave of volunteer souls who have incarnated here on Earth. As much as I dislike the idea of hokey new age malarkey, this one paragraph was extremely accurate in terms of describing myself, and Tom in many ways as well. Bolded words my own emphasis:
“The second wave are now in their late 20s and 30s. [I was 37 when I was first reading this, Tom was 32.] They are moving through life much more easily. [as opposed to the previous generation she calls the first wave.] They are generally focused on helping others, creating no karma, [the idea of “I must not create karma” admittedly never went through my head growing up, however it was always a strong awareness for Tom as he confirmed to me] and normally going unnoticed. They have been described as antennas, beacons, generators, channels of energy. They have come in with a unique energy that greatly affects others. They don’t have to do anything. They just have to be. I have been told that just by walking through a crowded mall or grocery store their energy affects everyone they come in contact with. It is that strong, and of course, they do not realize this consciously. The paradox is that although they are supposed to be affecting people by their energy, they really don’t feel comfortable being around people. So many of them stay home secluded, to avoid mixing with others; even working from their homes. [Tom works from home and is pretty much a secluded hermit. And outside of work I myself stay away from people for the most part.] Thus they are defeating their purpose. [not if you have a website you’re not. !! It’s the way that a hermit with an ingrained mission of “needing to help others” can do so……while still remaining detached.] Many of the first and second wave do not want to have children. [true of both Tom and I.] They unconsciously realize that children create karma, and they don’t want to have anything tie them here. They just want to do their job and get out of here. Many of them do not marry, unless they are lucky enough to find another of their own kind.” [Tom and I are not married and don’t want to be.]
I don’t agree with most of the ideas in the book, especially the weird spin that these types don’t need to do, “they just need to be.” Most of these types seem to be ingrained with a feeling of a mission. Simply “being” isn’t enough, and I would never tell anybody this crappy advise. “You don’t need to do! Just BE!” [eye roll] I actually feel this was a bit of an unintended misinformation spin that Dolores was compelled to put in there to try to discourage actual action on the part of those souls who are here on a mission. (Considering how she was compelled to put out disinformation portraying Gray aliens as positive. :/ ) If somebody is infused with a sense of a mission then my advice is to do one’s best to find what it is. There’s always positive, productive things we can be actually doing to make the world a better place. But there’s no doubt that this one paragraph describes Tom and I to a T in an uncanny way. Especially the one line, “They just want to do their job and get out of here.” Yup. :/
So this is probably the reason for what could be causing people to feel compelled to turn, look, watch, stare and in general hone in on certain people despite there being all these other people around them that they could also be bothering and looking at. It’s not gangstalking or being a “targeted individual” in the malicious sense of the phrase, but rather, the energy one is giving off, like a beacon. Whether they even realize it or not.
This directly ties into a phenomenon I noticed when we used to live in Cville, where people would suddenly feel compelled to turn and look/watch/stare at me as I was walking along the downtown pedestrian Mall. This sort of thing is absolutely classic in gangstalking literature, and self professed targets often truly believe that these people are paid spy snitches, there to watch them….and be obvious about it, to make sure they KNOW they’re being watched. And I can totally see how, for those with a lack of any metaphysical knowledge, that could seem to be the case. But for me I could tell that these people didn’t even know why they were looking. I wasn’t dressed flashy or “costume-y,” don’t have brightly colored hair, crazy makeup, tattoos or piercings. Yet they suddenly felt compelled to turn and look right at me, like something was subconsciously tugging at their attention and making them “notice” me. Rather than assume “gangstalking” (because I just truly didn’t believe that was the case) I began to realize after this happened a few times that I must be giving off some sort of signal, even when I think I’m being quiet and unobtrusive.
But it’s not like I’m not aware of the energy I give off. Multiple people with The Sight told me ALL about it years ago. In one case a guy working at the counter of a coffeehouse in downtown Fullerton, CA in ’95 was totally shocked at what he was seeing with me, saying he’d never seen anything like it. But when I walked through the front door I saw him behind the counter glance up at me, look down…..then jerk his head back up again doing a double take…….as his eyes slowly moved upwards above my head, clearly looking at something there, his eyes getting wide. Then looked at my face, like “WTF???” Eyes going up again, then ducked his head back down, trying to not be so obvious. Long story short he told me later about how he could see that I had energy just pouring off the top of my head, spanning multiple feet up into the air, like nothing he’d ever seen. And meanwhile he told me how other people my age (I was 20, almost 21 at the time) have energy that’s primarily centered around their genitalia region, for obvious reasons. But not me he said. Mine was all concentrated over my head, just pouring off it.
My brother Joe also noted this about me, saying I was functioning as a battery almost, with the amount of energy that was just pouring off my head. Called me Copper Top. It was a phenomenon that could be felt as well, as I learned from my good friend Mike when we were hanging out one night in his room with friends. We were sitting on his bed when he leaned over my head to get something off the shelf attached to the wall above his bed, then was like, “WHOA!” pulling back. Then passed his hands back and forth over my head, laughing like, Holy shit! Said there was all this heat just pouring off my head. Soon everybody else in the room was passing their hands back and forth over my head to feel it too. I could feel it when I put my hand over my head as well during that instance. A female friend/coworker with The Sight also confirmed my strange energy pattern as well, that she hadn’t seen before with anybody. She could perceive auras, and said mine was nearly all blue, with only a smidgeon of yellow, near the head. She’d never seen what was basically a 99% blue aura before. Another time I witnessed a toddler seeming to see my aura when his mom was pushing him past me in a stroller on the downtown Mall in Cville. She was walking slowly, so he had enough time to look up at me….then his eyes continued to look above and all around my head in wonder, then looked at my face, giggling. Have no idea what he saw, but at least it made him smile and giggle. :D Even my cat Kitty did it one time, looking at my energy/aura above and around my head with curious/puzzled intrigue, like, “huh…..”
Animals can directly see, as well as intuitively perceive, more than people can, because they have a wider visual capability. So in a sea of people with very dim – or maybe nonexistent – energy and personal auras, along comes me, who’s apparently radiating intense energy. It’s obviously causing people to be subconsciously drawn to look at me, hone in on me out of everybody in the vicinity, and why animals are also reacting so positively to me, acting like they don’t even perceive the other people around me in multiple instances. There’s probably even more to it than just that, having to do with the nature of one’s soul, touched on earlier. Which then explains the reactions I’ve gotten from kids over the years. (Billy at Butterfly World wasn’t the only kid that was drawn to me, hugging onto me. In another instance a five year old girl, back in late ’95, literally flung herself at me from across the room. She had never seen me before, I’d only just arrived to her parent’s apartment in Fullerton [north Orange County, CA.] And I was only there because I was tagging along with/“babysitting” my mildly inebriated friend Zach, whom I looked out for whenever I ran into him and we hung out. Zach was talking with this girl’s parents, who were acquaintances of his, as I just stood quietly on the sidelines, checking out their apartment. It had a really neat creative artistic look, with the painted walls in nice colors like orange-y red, and homemade paintings and such. I made eye contact with their girl who was standing on the far side of the livingroom, as she watched me intensely. Then suddenly without warning she was barrelling across the room, throwing herself at me, grabbing onto my legs with a big hug. Everybody in the room, including her parents, went silent, like OMG….what the….?!? looking at each other with wide eyes. And of course it was another case of how the kid in question has never done that before with anybody, this is a first, etc. etc.)
In looking back at my own childhood I can remember the few teens or adults I too was drawn to. I didn’t throw myself at them or hug them, but I just instantly liked them and was always happy to see them. (the rest often just got the “um hm….” attitude from me. ;D ) Some adults have something warm and kind and real that kids pick up on psychically, and it only gets magnified if the kid in question is surrounded by teens and adults who lack that and make them feel uneasy, or invisible/nothing.
So you have that, along with the higher than normal amount of energy, combining together to create…..situations in everyday life. Both positive and negative. And yeah, the effect is admittedly exactly like Dolores Cannon wrote about – makes you want to shrink up and stay away from people because you just get so tired of being “THE ONE” that people always want to bother and annoy and hone in on for questions, problems and issues.
And relating to the earlier point about realizing that the way one perceives themselves may not exactly match how the rest of the world perceives you – my aforementioned friend (and roommate) Mike back in California once said that being around me felt like there was this [psychic] “tug” that was pulling him in. Not in a bad way, but in an inviting way. Which probably relates to the ongoing phenomenon of how for years and years now when people get around me they spontaneously open up, and often times wind up either telling me their life stories, or excerpts of their life, or even better and weirder…their confessional secrets. I’m a storehouse of various people’s secrets and/or revelatory anecdotes, from the scandalous to the mundane, it’s kind of funny. Like I’m a therapist of sorts, or a priest behind the wall in a confessional. And meanwhile as I just sit there and listen with rapt interest – which is probably creating that “tug” that Mike described – even when it concerns their regular life story (that usually still has that underlying element of “admitting to something out loud”).
So, I may perceive myself as being closed off and walled up and “leave me alone!!” but, that’s apparently not the vibe I’m giving off on a core soul level. Of which people are picking up on subconsciously. The true me deep down is interested in people. So they oblige, and get drawn in like moths to the flame. Then depending on the situation and the person I’m either like Cool! listening with rapt interest, or left feeling like “AHHHH!” and running away. It’s a bit confusing and contradictory.
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It’s a mixed bag of craziness that we’re often facing as we try to just navigate through our everyday lives, especially for anybody who’s “on the radar.” There’s multiple types of weirdness that can happen, and often for multi-layered reasons. The important summary to keep in mind is:
For me, I’m expecting to be able to just live my life and get through my day, and in most instances doing so while in a calm, peaceful, positive state. But if a negative honing/bullying/blocking and impediment situation suddenly pops up…..I’m now at a place where I can just snap into whatever response is immediately necessary. I made myself aware, due to experiencing repeated instances of haranguing, in multiple varieties, then thought/planned ahead about what I need to do the next time it may happen. Or in other words……I reprogrammed myself. So now, even if I’m spacing out and deep in my own head, I will no longer be caught off guard. Different responses for different situations obviously, depending on what’s happening. But ready to respond nonetheless, to shut stuff down – establish my boundaries – before it can get off the ground. Then getting back about my business. (Even a situation like that whack job guy who tromped in front of my line of sight like a robot when I was trying to record the sunrise, despite me moving forward into the actual surf so he wouldn’t video bomb me….….now that I’ve experienced that one I’ll of course keep my eye out for stuff like that in the future, and I’ll be ready for it. ;D Not going to let that one happen again.)
Same as how I started handling the putt-putt drivers phenomenon, especially when they’d pull out in front of me and then proceed to do a slow crawl. Became willing to illegally – but calmly – pass every one of them until reality got the hint. Whether it was happening because of some sort of wonky magnetic resonance/law of attraction thing, or because I was just straight up getting poked by some self aware reality construct, either way my response was “Nope! Not anymore.” If it was the former reason then the magnetic resonance was broken because I was no longer going to let it make me feel like some trapped/blocked helpless victim hostage. If it was the latter than our little reality construct learned I wasn’t going to accept this situation anymore. But either way….problem solved. !!
That is the thing that admittedly does suck about it all…..the fact that things have to happen in the first place for us to even realize that “IT’S A THING,” and to learn one by one all the different types of bizarre scenarios we may face as we try to go about our days. Who would have thought that the “surf tromping guy” could even happen? Not until it did to me. But….now I know. Again, I just have a sense of humor about it by this point in 2023. Which leads to…..
Experiencing the various things that I discuss in this write up forced me to have to examine and dissect all of them…….but most importantly, my reactions to them. I definitely have my moments of hitting things out of the park in terms of not feeling those negative reactions, but I definitely have many moments where things get the best of me.
You can only experience Agent Smith popping through empty people so many times over the decades before you start to want to throw a few temper tantrums and resort to being three years old. It’s understandable. BUT the realization that snapped me out of it in a matter-of-fact, adult way is that Hey….I’ve done things to directly poke “Stuff,” for many years. (Taking loosh food and victims away from them, primarily. And aiding Tom to make the most of himself on the best timeline, which also took away a massive level of food and victims from them, due to the influence of Tom’s work. So it’s been a double whammy of having a positive effect….at their expense.) So can you blame them I guess. ;) Of course they’re going to lash out and retaliate. Especially when right now they believe they’re running the joint and feel it’s theirs in the first place. So now when I feel like I want to throw a little tantrum due to yet another “from out in left field Agent Smith attack” that explodes in my reality like a bomb I take a breath and poke fun at myself with the joking thought of “oh, I’m so upset! I incarnated into the Devil’s Zoo and picked a fight with them and now I’m mad when they try to get me back through empty drone pawns! waah! I can’t understand what the problem is here and why this keeps happening!” ;D It helps. Gotta keep perspective. (And a sense of humor, as mentioned….) which then leads to being able to control reactions.
An additional, even better way to look at it is this: Imagine if you could actually SEE “The Man Behind the Curtain” pulling the strings with regards to the negative haranguing and honing phenomenon. If you could finally fully KNOW-know that it really IS being orchestrated by “Stuff” that’s just trying to mess with you. I don’t know about anybody else but for me that would immediately stop any negative reactions. In the same exact way that I stopped having the escalating fear/disempowerment feelings literally overnight, once my Higher Self communicated to me that there were “Thems” orchestrating the “Sidetrack Circus Diversion/Fear and Paranoia Generator” events that had been plaguing my life throughout 2002-2003, in order to keep me in a fear frequency, scared all the time. I couldn’t take any of it seriously anymore after learning that, as described in “Chasing Phantoms.” After that everything changed. The black heli harassments, the street theater by randos out in public, the strange phone tapping and bizarre-o voicemails, the nighttime neg entities, you name it, it pretty much all stopped, almost 100%. Now what if you applied the same principles and ideas to all the rest of it in life. I kind of feel like all the smaller, stupid peripheral nonsense began happening exactly BECAUSE I got the really big and overt stuff to stop. I could be wrong, but it seems that “They” had to resort to stupid smaller shit, because that’s all they could get past me anymore. Who knows though.
So one of the tactics I’m utilizing for myself is to just tell myself Look, even though you haven’t directly “SEEN” the invisible hand at work you have enough evidence that it’s what’s behind various phenomenon, including the smaller peripheral nonsense, so just proceed as if it HAS been confirmed. Because if it was, you wouldn’t be able to get pissed by any of it any more…..not even the nasty bully haranguers. You’d see the whole thing exactly for what it really is. Same as the fear frequency revelation. And you’d never mistake a situation as being actual real people behaving on their own accords. “Just more puppets, being piloted by the Invisible Hand. ;) Just more situations being impossibly arranged and synchronized. ;) Wave it off and keep moving, can’t take any of this seriously anymore.”
Conclusion
Like I mentioned earlier, the day the synchronous happenings and alignments stop happening in my reality is the day that I get very concerned, because to me it’s “the way things are.” It’s a function of this place if you’re real, and especially if you’re different in some way on a soul level. It doesn’t need to be something negative. At the bare minimum it means you’re definitely NOT an NPC. ;) If we’re existing in a reality that’s largely artificial in nature, something that’s been generated by, and governed by, consciousness, and with both positive and negative forces that know how to manipulate things exactly because of the artificial nature of it, then that’s what it is. Nothing has changed really, other than now you know. And now you can fully utilize that knowledge to better navigate your everyday life, getting the upperhand.
This also means taking responsibility for the things we are helping to create, though frequency resonance. We’re not complete victims here, there’s a lot that we’re doing to bring in both positive and negative factors into our lives, whether we realize it or not. (I’d recommend checking out the podcast series Tom and I did that was posted last month, which gets into this subject and about a zillion others….) You may not be able to get the more negative types of things to fully stop 100%. Maybe you’ll get it down to 80 or 90%. But as I even noted in my book “Chasing Phantoms,” 80 or 90% reduction in harassment and annoyance is still WAY better than nothing. And once we get it to reduce we can get back about our business, and resume whatever we actually came here to do.